Bonzophuebes1 Posted July 17, 2007 Share Posted July 17, 2007 I wrote this a long time ago, what do you all think? Looking At Myself My bare feet walk on the grass: Stepping on stones, I hope the pain will pass. Creeping up to my bed, I stare at me while I sleep. I reach down and touch my forehead, it feels so cold, I begin to weep. Passing by a mirror, I stop and look at me. I stare in fear, wondering who it is looking back at me. I notice the mirror image leave and my soul has lost its sleeve. The sound of a gunshot fills my ears, I pull my hands up to cover the noise. I see the blood bleed from my heart, dripping to the ground with an echo. I fall to the ground and clutch my heart but is has been chained from the start. I cry out to me as I try to take my life. Not getting through, I now see me die. I reach for my hand but it slips by. I watch myself hit the floor, my eyes begin to close. Where i'm going, nobody knows. I watch my soul get ripped from my heart, the barbed wired around it is now my home. I try to break free, the wire digs into me. So confined, cannot get out. This pain is too much to bare. I watch the preacher say a prayer as he raises his hands to the sky. He says "Lord as you take this child" I turn and look at the ground, I see a coffin under a shady tree. I move closer to see, I begin to cry when I see it is me. So empty is my spirit as I watch it fly in confusion. Not knowing whether to up or down. Crying it falls to the ground. I run to help me face my fear, by the time I reach me, I disappear. Now I see me in the grave, the dirt begins to fill the hole. I try to get out but I am not that strong. The light I saw has now turned black. I have watched myself die, I am never coming back. Link to comment
girl friend Posted July 17, 2007 Share Posted July 17, 2007 Thats beautiful. But are you suicidal? Are you religious as well come to that? I wonder what hidden factors motivate you to create such beautiful work. Link to comment
Master Sasori Posted July 17, 2007 Share Posted July 17, 2007 What are your feelings about it? I personally think that life is precious to give and receive, Its a constant climb out of negativity tho if you want to become happy. Link to comment
Bonzophuebes1 Posted July 18, 2007 Author Share Posted July 18, 2007 Well, I wrote this long ago, some 18 years ago. Not so suicidal anymore, though I still do not want to be on this earth. I just do not want to exsist. I never have. I will do nothing to expedite my exscape from it though. I live in a constant cloud of dissaray. Meandering through this life without much purpose. Not wanting a purpose either. Just being is enough that it makes me sick. I will find no solace here. Link to comment
ycmanvs Posted July 18, 2007 Share Posted July 18, 2007 You'll find it here, on this website. Link to comment
Bonzophuebes1 Posted July 18, 2007 Author Share Posted July 18, 2007 Yes, sometimes I do. However, seeing some of the things people post just makes me wonder why we are here? What is the point? Other times I just want to curl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep. I tried though, I have no tears left to cry, cliche I know. Thank you ycmanvs, you always cheer me up, even if it is a little. ;-) Link to comment
ycmanvs Posted July 20, 2007 Share Posted July 20, 2007 Yes, sometimes I do. However, seeing some of the things people post just makes me wonder why we are here? What is the point? Other times I just want to curl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep. I tried though, I have no tears left to cry, cliche I know. Thank you ycmanvs, you always cheer me up, even if it is a little. ;-) YAY, I am glad to hear that. I am sooooooooooooo bored at work and this place really helps me deal with the banality that is my life at the moment. Link to comment
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