blueangel Posted July 3, 2007 Share Posted July 3, 2007 My heart won't let me go to bed Nor will my head Nothing will let me sleep And yet I feel so dead. I need supported, loved, and lifted To know I'm never alone Someone...anyone, are you there? For now, I live in the dark Waiting for good dreams That never do get here For no one is around right now I'm stuck feeling alone Can't hold myself up on my own Still I can hear them down below The TV roaring louder than it should But they can't hear me. My heart beating as its bleeding Holding onto my pillow sheets Life is never hopeless though There are many thing I'd still like to see Like to see where life leads Find out what I can be. Life's is disappointing though Every day, I still must go on Push on, keep fighting Trying to be so strong I'm trying to be happy But inside, I know I'm dying There's no one to see me I'm alone in the dark and My heart won't let me sleep Link to comment
gobbledegook Posted July 3, 2007 Share Posted July 3, 2007 Very nice; definitely something I can relate to. Link to comment
blueangel Posted July 3, 2007 Author Share Posted July 3, 2007 I called my boyfriend after I wrote that (it was like midnight) and now I feel better. We all have those nights where we just cradle some pain and don't know what to do with it. To get through it...I just endure it. Suffering isn't bad, doesn't matter that much- because when you look back into memories of times you suffered, you only feel love and compassion for yourself rather than relive the pain in your heart. Sometimes that makes it worth it, especially on days when I'm trying to fake it... pretending to be someone I'm not. To remember and feel that love And it makes me take a look at how far I've come if I'm doing better another day...or sometimes just the next morning. Link to comment
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