It has been about 4 months...I wanted to back off and give her some room since what I did was a big mistake. March 29th: Could you or anyone else help me by giving me a what I should say exactaly for the first few calls...I want things to go right this time. ...It would be greatly appreciated and maybe I can pay you guys back someday, somehow, maybe with some enlightening poem, etc. If it is any help, I did drop her alot of hits and I don't think she realized any of them, in the summer I would called her every few days to just say whats up, etc and to past time in this boring world, it was weird though she seemed not to notice but some how I think she wanted to be with me but at the same time did not. maybe because the only thing we shared in common was we both took french (where I met her), and that we...Well I was going to say had no life but she did seem to have a life after she was ungrounded. I hope you guys don't mind that I am just rambling on, but it just seems to help with the depressing side of this crap. Anyway, she seemed to like me but I know that I came out in the end alittle to coarse and that just messed me up because I went down in flames and one thing led to another and I eventually just cralled up in to a ball and hid in a corner which did not help my social life one bit. Just on a side note...My parents and siblings did not help in the matter either, even though they knew I was looking for the perfect person, and when I finally found her they just excused it as nothing, I told them after she had moved and I qoute my mother saying "Well then that sucks for you, you should just give up and get over yourself" not exactaly what I wanted to hear...if I knew you guys were here non of this would of happened. Well I can tell now that my rambaling is probably becoming annoying so I am going to go to bed and think of her...Since she is all I think about.
