babydoll1984

sometimes it's hard... and gay people get the wonderful experience *note degrees of sarcasm* of coming out of the closet... I first had sex with a girl... neither of us were out we were both just high school kids who passed eachother in the halls, rarely spoke, until one day she walked up to my locker and asked "do you want to spend the night tonight?" and something inside me just knew she wanted sex, as did I... so I looked her square in the eye and said "yes." after school I went home and asked my parents if I could stay over at her house, they said yes, I had dinner with her folks and talked for an hour or so and then just went upstairs... and well, you get the idea, that was 4 years ago and I am in a relationship with a woman now, I still have many friends who don't know but I find it easier to fess up and come out more and more... but when I was young, even though I KNEW I liked women I would never have considered talking about it because it's not until you get older anyway that anyone wants to hear about your sexuality... especially your elders... so keep it simmered unless you're comfortable otherwise... and no one should be walking around asking if other people are gay... just like no one should walk around asking if you're straight... it's just rude...

thanks guys it's really good to know that i have support... and things could always be worse i suppose... i dunno i want to hear a couple of your stories though, about your love lives and especially if you're gay about the issues that you face day to day in your life and how you overcome them... i think i need a little inspiration.... -thanks y'all

Okay so I've always known I was bi... my first sexual experiences were with females and I've always been okay with this... now almost 4 years after my first lesbian relationship and after going through many straight and gay relationships I have become severely aware that I am so much more attracted to women. I am currently seeing a woman who I adore, we've both decided to take things slow... that is something I've never done before. I get pretty bored easily and don't date people much longer than a month or two however I'm crazy about this woman (who's known for long relationships) and I don't see myself calling it quits anytime soon. Maybe it's the fact that I'm expecting to have this woman in my life for a long time, but never have I ever felt the need to face my sexuality. I've always just kinda gone with the flow but I'm coming to the realization that my attraction to men is dwindling and my feelings for women so much more fullfilling... and honestly I REALLY DON'T WANT TO BE GAY... okay well so I don't want to be gay, but if that's what I am then that's what I am but I feel like now I have to DO something about it, like come out of the closet (which I am so not ready for). I'm thinking my feelings for this woman are pushing my desire for it to be "ok" and for the people around me to accept it because I plan on staying with her for more than the amount of time it would take to get her drunk and sleep with her and no one finding out... I just want to be proud and loud and have everyone say OK!!! YOU GO GIRL!!! And it doesn't help the woman I am seeing is perfect perfect perfect... otherwise I'd get scared and run away... I sometimes feel that I do stupid shit to sabotage what I have so that I don't have to face my feelings... I just want to know that I'm not alone on this... please share your feelings *ps she just called i gotta go* - lost and confused