Rancidpunx

I recently missed my friends 18th birthday party, and i feel gilty about it. i was about 200+ miles away and id promiced id be there but through no fault of my own i missed it. I dont know if she thinks i did it on purpose or not. the thing is i'm mildly agraphopic and i feel ill at ease in situations like partys and the such. she knows i tend to avoid situations where i know theres going to be allot of people. so i'm unsure if she thinks it was intentional that i missed it. think she holds it against me ? or am i just bein paranoid?

about a year

I've fallen for a friend of mine. Ive known her for about a year now and all i reilly think about i her. I know she feels the same for me (she's said as much) but she has a boyfriend and she doesnt want to leave him, yet she wants me to sleep with her. I dont think it's right as she has a boyfriend and after id know she's be going back to him and i'd get myself down Am i being too moral !? or do i have the right idea ?!