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  1. lostgirlaus
    I spoke to him 5 days ago about getting my money back and he said he transferred and it would take awhile since there would be bank holidays. He texted me today and asked if I had recieved it. I said yes, and he texted back saying he was just making sure and I said it was fine. He replied with a "np". It just seems like an excuse to text me... I wanted to text him back and ask how his xmas was but I didn't. I still miss him so much. It's been nearly 2 months since the break up, and no, it doesn't get any easier. It's so much harder around the holiday season and if we were still together, it would have been our 1 year in 3 days. I miss and love you so much baby, but I know I did the right thing.
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    I have no idea what day I'm at anymore... I broke up with him 7 weeks ago, and in that time I broke NC twice. I never really felt bad about breaking NC because I wasn't doing anything stupid like begging and asking him to come back. I was straight forward with what I wanted which was my money back which he owed me. I messaged him again today reminding him that he had said he'd pay me today and that I expected it in my account by the end of the day. For the past few days I can't help but miss him so much. It was this time last year we first started talking, it's the holiday season and I feel so alone. In a week it would have been our 1 year. We would have been going away for our anniversary. Instead I'm going with a girl friend. Sighh I hate this and I miss him so much
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    Day 5 of NC It was exactly one month ago that I broke up with him. I've given up hope of him ever coming back I don't think about him to such extreme extent anymore.
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    Day 2 of NC I'm glad I spoke to him yesterday if I hadn't it would always be in the back of my mind "what if...". I don't regret it at all still and don't feel like I'm back at square one. I feel like I'm at day 27 like I should have been anyway. Though I do still miss him, I'm not depressed about it anymore. I still keep wishing he'd come back like he did last time I suppose since it's happened once I keep thinking it'll happen again...
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    Day 1 of NC (Should be 26) I just broke NC. I asked him to come on the trip with me since we're both paying for it. He said he'd get back to me. I don't regret breaking NC but I just wish I could go back a couple of months and make things work...
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    Day 25 of NC All I can say is wow. I cannot believe I have made it 25 days without speaking to him. It seems so surreal. I still don't feel like the whole break up real. I still keep hoping we'll get back together one day even though it isn't something that's for the best... It hurts when I see other couples, or when I do things/go places with friends where I have been with him. Everywhere I look, something or other reminds me of him...
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    Day 18 of NC I'm still on the rollercoaster. I miss him in my life... I'm so close to breaking NC but not because I want to get back together but because I want my money back lol
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    Day 15 of NC I've had it. I don't want this anymore. Everything reminds me of you... I'm sitting here crying my eyes out while you're out partying with other girls...
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    Day 14 of NC I need advice guys! I'm thinking of breaking NC and speaking to him about the trip we had planned. I've tried everything... I can't change the name on the ticket or get a refund/exchange either. He said he'd pay me back, I'm thinking of contacting him and asking if we could be civilized adults on go on it together since we both lose money otherwise. I'm pretty sure he will say no, but you never know until you try, true? Is it too earlier after the break up? I'm thinking of asking to meet in person for this, that way I can give him his stuff back too...
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    When I began NC, I looked at his page for the first 3 days but it gradually got less, on the 4th day I wasn't even tempted to look at it. Today (13th day of NC) was the first day I looked at his page, I also looked at pictures from his brother's wedding that were on his step sister's page (we're still friends) and I didn't feel anything. It was just a test and I passed.
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    Day 13 of NC Sighh it's only the morning and I already feel like * * * * . I feel like crying, something I haven't done since about day 3 or so. I miss him so much and wish he was here with me... I miss knowing I have someone there for me when I need them, someone to talk to, someone whose shoulder I can cry one, someone to give me hugs when I'm low. There go the waterworks... I might be having a friend over later, so hopefully he can cheer me up a bit.. This is going to be a long day
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    Day 12 of NC I went interstate the other with my best friend who won a competition and we both saw a band. I had fun and didn't miss him, but I kept talking about him. I can't help it, it feels like all my memories, everything I have to say is some how related to him. I notice that I'm doing it but I can't stop either. Came back home yesterday and then saw another mate, didn't miss him at all yeserday. Now it's Saturday afternoon and I'm home all alone. I know tonight will be hell because we always spent the weekends together and I'll be alone tonight. I hate this. I hate that I keep thinking he will call me. He still hasn't contacted me about getting his stuff back, I'm not sure he even will because last time he never came and got it. He also still owes me money, I heard he lost his job but I want my money back too. I'm considering breaking NC to ask for my money back or at least give him a few weeks deadline to get it back to me. I don't know though... I think I'll feel even worse if I do
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    End of day 9 of NC I miss him. A lot. It has suddenly struck me that I'm alone. I feel so empty and alone... He was such a major part of my life for the past 10 months. I know I was fine before he came into my life so I should be fine now too, but it's so hard to go back to that now. I found myself constantly thinking about him today, which I haven't done since the first few days. I miss him but it's not a heart wrenching kind of feeling. Just sad and lonely. I promised myself I will not cry. I heard from his step sister last night that he got sacked, I can't stop thinking about how I should be there for him in this time of need but then I remember how he was never there for me. Never there to console me and tell me it will be ok. Sighh..
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    Day 8 of NC Started off the day great just like past few days. I went on Facebook and was on a mutual friends profile when I saw him on their friend list. I haven't checked his Facebook for 4 days but i saw he had a new profile pic from his brothers wedding this past weekend. I felt a pang of something, I'm not even sure what... But now I feel like I'm back at square one. My good mood of the past few days is gone But in other news my mate won a competition to go interstate to see a band on Thursday and is taking me, so that should be good
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