...Its not my wife.
This is baaad. Where to start...
Married 12 years. 2 kids. Not a bad marriage but one more like a good business partner rather than love. My wife is a wonderful person and a great mom. This makes my guilt that much worse. I love my kids more than air.
The problem... let the flames begin
I have fallen DEEPLY in love with a friend who also works for my wife and myself (separate businesses) and lives accross the street from us. This story can't get more complex so I will try to keep it as simple as possible. The woman is 15 years younger than me and we have been close friends for 5 years. I have been attracted to her for the past 3 years. Over the past 4 months we have been seeing each other romanticaly. We have realized that we love each other deeply. The feelings I have for her are based on our strong friendship first. The intimacy that has followed has been like nothing I have ever felt in my life. When I am with her and look into her eyes I know that she is my soulmate. I constantly think about her to the point where it is hard to conduct my daily life. She is 100% in love with me as well. No, it is not lust (for the sceptics) I never wanted this to happen but it has.
Telling me to walk away from her is like telling a drug addict to walk away from the drug. Its not that simple. I truly love her and I am afraid of loosing my true soulmate. My main concern is that I don't want to wreck my kids with this. My brain is ready to explode. I have set up an appointment with a Psychologist. I hope there is a non-judgemental person on this board that can lend some real advice. Anyone with a similar experience???
Thanks,
can't think, not even breathe
Racer
