Day 2.
I was not feeling too well at work (cold weather, skipping breakfast, work related RSI and just not sleeping enough), that plus the emotional pain was too much. Took the day off work. I literally stopped (out of sheer hopelessness) and took about half a minute before being able bring myself to move at work multiple times. Went home and rested a bit then read this forum and feeling much better. I just needed to be reminded of certain things (eg. he's gone now, he made his decision and there is no going back. Best thing I can do is to respect his decision of my dignity.).
Not looking forward to work tmr, have to caught up on all the paper work that was suppose to be done today. =/