fairychick

Thank you for taking the time to provide such wise and kind answers. I know he means no harm, and we've always been able to talk. So of course we will talk about this. It was just the shock of seeing them - with the anniversary date of the first rape coming up. I'm sensitive to things like this now. But he's a good man and he'll understand. Thanks again...sleep warm. tara

I don't even know what to say. This just happened. I've been married for 5 years to a wonderful man...he's kind, takes care of me, loves me. Due to my health we haven't been sexually active - or at least not enough for him. He denies it, but I know that he's looking at a lot of porn on the Net. Most of it is anime pictures, but there are more than a few "real" women as well. I actually didn't mind because it took pressure off of me. ANd mostly he plays with the images digitally making slide shows and changing wallpapers. He's been mentioning that he wants me to buy some boy short panties because he loves my butt (I guess I should be flattered). He said I should only buy them if I wanted to, if I liked them, etc. Yesterday I bought a couple pairs figuring why not. They were comfortable and I put a pair on when we got home and laid down because I wasn't feeling well. I woke up early this morning and one of the cats was being all cute so I decided to take a picture with the digital camera. when I went to look at it there were 7 pictures of ME. He had come in the room while I was sleeping and taken pictures of me!! I had on a tshirt and the panties, and was asleep in a fetal type position which made my butt stick out. You can't see my face. I don't usally bother his computer but I looked at his image program and he had taken one of the images and is using it to make a wallpaper type thing. I KNOW he would never share these pictures of me. But that's not the problem I was raped at age 12 and at age 19. So I have a few sexual problems to begin with, and issues with trust when it comes to sex. When I saw the pictures I felt violated. I love him, but I'm so afraid that he's becoming more and more obsessed with sex. Im not worried about his having an affair, but I don't want to be afraid to take a nap because he might sneak up on me with the camera and snap away. Especially when I'm sleeping. The last time I was raped it was by someone who broke into my house and woke me up by standing over me. So I'm not comfortable sleeping anyway. Suggestions on what I should do? fairychick