Day 1
I just broke up with my ex on Sunday, after learning that he had made out with someone else. I am devastated to say the least. How can someone who says he's in love with you be interested in someone else? This person works with him, so I feel like with me out of the picture, they are already dating and having a fabulous time.
How can 6 years of a relationship be over just like that? Not 2 weeks ago, we were talking about where to get married, price, rings, etc. This is the first guy I have ever trusted in my life and this had to happen. I don't see myself trusting again.
We had been going through a tough financial situation. We both own houses that are worth way less today than when we bought them. I had told him that we could give one up and concentrate our efforts on one. He said no because he didn't want to just give up. I should have known then that he had commitment issues. I wanted to keep his house because we had completely gutted it, and I had decorated it inside and out, according to my tastes and our future needs. I am about to turn 30, so we were thinking about getting pregnant by late next year. I guess the best made plans are always gonna get broken??? We had gotten dogs soon after we started dating, and now he's keeping them because they will enjoy his backyard (I have non). These puppies are like my kids. I have to give up my love and then my puppies? What is the point?
Today I just want to foreclose on my house and have extra money to do whatever I please... or maybe take time off work. I hated every aspect of my life, but was dealing because I could rely on his strength and convictions. He always made me smile when I was down and I'd like to think I did the same for him. For me, the most important thing in life is to live it to the fullest with a partner by my side. It does not mean as much if you don't have that special someone besides you.
Going through this forum, I see the raw emotion everyone's in. I feel the same way and wonder if and end will ever be in sight. Many say that time heals all, but I disagree. Time may ease the pain, but the wound is always there... I know from previous hurt.
Icyness, I have the same conclusion... all I want is him back in my arms... making a happy life and family. Is that really too much to ask? Any hope I guess can do us in.