sammeh

hi, I last left a message here a few weeks ago and as much as it helped i still cant seem to over come the fear of rejection...i think it is bcuz i have got in my head that i am the uglyist person on the face of the earth bcuz i havent gotten with anyone for a long time, but how can i tell if am or not that is for other people to think this is what it is confusing me. I was in a club the other week and it was full of females i found very attractive, but couldent bring me self to talk to them or even if thay are looking at me to smile or wink or to even acknowledge them i just turn my head away. This is starting to really really get to me so much so i have though about suicide bcuz i feel so lonley. I just need some way to overcome this fear, also when dancing would it be to forward to go behind a girl and start dancing with them? thanks for your time in reading and helping.. sam.

hi, Im 18 years old and go clubbing oftern, but just cant seem to bring my self to talk to or dance with..etc women for a fear of rejection, im always scared that thay will say something like "go away" or "no thanks" or "leave me alone". If this was to happern i believe that it would shatter my hope of finding some one to "get with"on that night. When im dancing or looking at someone i find attractive...etc things run through my head like "what is the point in trying", "your not going to get any where" "ur to werid to get some one, no one is going to want to be with you" and some times (this is the part that i dont like to think but it always ends up running though my mind) "might as well kill ur self as ur going be lonley for the rest of your life with no one to like/love you". Once i get these thoughts it ruins my night out as i then get depressed and end up sitting on my own in a corner with all my friends saying "are u ok" to with i ALWAYS reply "yes im fine leave me alone" then that gets me down and i start thinking them thoughs again and so it goes on and on. my friends say "if u get rejected just forget about it and try again" but thats is eaiser said than done for me. Is there any way to over come this?? How can i tell if women notice me? (if that is possible) Then IF supposing i do get with some one where do i go from there?? PLZ PLZ PLZ if any one can help me i would be most grateful as i dont want to spend my life thiking like this and i dont want my though to end up over coming me thank you for your time reading my problem Sammy.