Someday -
Let me try to explain my words:
Why do I think I've lost her? I took her for granted - and let our relationship stagnate - there was nothing to hope for, look forward to - nothing for our future. I could of made it more exciting - listened to her and kept the relationship interesting - I didn't.
Why didn't I think I'd lose her - because I was selfish - I put myself first - my desire's before anything else. Because we had gone through tough times in the past - and we'd always manged to get through them - and I thought this would be the same. She was always strong - believed in me - in us. She fought for our relationship from the start - I was unsure at times - unsure even though I could trust her with everything I am. I was an idiot.
Again I took her for granted because I put myself first. Instead of spending time with her - example - she would want to clean the garage - go through old stuff, throw things out. I would think - Awww not something else to do again and tell her I was to tired etc. then go and watch Tv - or go onto the computer. In reality I was missing the point. The point is to spend time with each other - to laugh, share the exerience with each other. She understood that - I understand this now, but it's to late.
It's hard, because she opened my eyes to so many new and wonderful things. I will be OK in time, but I think I will never get over this 100%