we made the deal to still be friends and continue to hang out (season tickets for baseball game, movies, etc... Im just hoping that she'll fall back in love if she see's that im the man for her...but at the same time she might only see me as a friend
I am too scared to start dating right now because I cant see myself with anybody but her. I have been hanging with my friends and family - going to clubs, bars, malls etc......but they cant be around me 24/7 and its driving me crazy. I only eat once a day, cant fall asleep unless I drink and I wake up at 5am every morning........... All i can do is think about her and my mistakes.
I feel that I have grown up so much in this time apart I know that i am a better man....... I have so much love to give to her right now. It is so hard because I feel like I spent 4 years with a angel and now she wants to fly away......