millionaire1

Nevermind, i figured it out

I'm sorry I'm new to this, what is PM???

i'm sorry if i'm posting too much. But i'm hurting. But the other thing that makes me upset is that while were together, I had the opportunity to leave him to date someone that makes more money, a whole lot more attractive in my eyes, more outgoing, taller, more in shape, . . . . but I turned him down because I was committed to being with my ex. I could have left him for this other guy or played him but I didn't. And he dumps me? Man!!!!!

lol, not that long. I met him June 24th and we began being together sometime in July. Actually, this last break up was the 2nd time he broke up with me. The first time he said I had too many trust issues, and I had also told him that I wanted to abstain from sex til marriage. But we got back together a few days later and we continued being intimate. So basically he broke up with me twice in 5 months. I do believe I'm much better off though. Because I was lowering my standards alot with him. I wasn't even attracted to him in the beginning. I did meet his mom and brother and they both told him that I was the best looking girl he's ever been with. One of the things that makes me so upset is that, I settled so much with him, and put my heart into it, but he was willing to give me up just like that. I have to say that I really miss being in his arms and the attention I received from him.

[i think about how cocky he was the night he left... 5 weeks ago today... I laugh at the audacity in that... the coldness, and then when he wrote me the email to tell me to stop calling he put a subject of "time to move on". What an arrogant jerk!!!!, yes what a jerk! The actual event of the break-up is losing it's sting. I was not perfect in the relationship, and neither was he... but for him to blame it all on me on his way out... was not only cowardly, but extremely immature. I was not all those things he said I was... and I know that. The break-up is losing it's sting, and he's losing his power I held for him in my mind.] My ex broke up with me the same sort of way, . . . by email and called it in the subject, "Happy Holidays!" At first I thought it was a forward, then I thought maybe he's saying he's looking forward to Thanksgiving, but it was a break-up email. I was so devastated. This sucks so much though. I haven't given my heart to anyone like this in years.

I'm also wondering if he's perhaps waiting for me to initiate us getting back together.

Hello everyone, I just joined today. I've been reading several post for the past few days. I haven't contacted my ex since last Tuesday, Dec. 2nd. And each day is tough. He broke up with me the monday before Thanksgiving by email and deleted me off of facebook. He said I was controlling, insecure and selfish. He later apologized for the way he handled the break-up and begin to say nice things, and said that I have set and raised the bar for future girlfriends. He told me before the break-up that he's never experienced the type of care and concern I have shown him. He tried contacting me last week about a potential business client for me but I didn't respond. Lately he's only been sending me forwards on email. I'm hurting so much and want to be in his arms again. I wish that just once he would tell me that he misses me or something along those lines. I'm doing the NC but it's difficult. I feel like I just have to tell him how I miss him and want to be with him.