somethngwrng

I can't wait around for you to make a decision. You have to make up your mind what you want. If I'm not what you want anymore, then simply tell me and we can be done with this. But your words and actions are speaking two different meanings at the moment and I desperately want to believe your words. Judging by your attitude toward me in the past few days, I am having more and more trouble believing them. I need to get away from you because I can't deal with the pain of giving my love to you and being treated with disrepect in return. At least when we broke up I gave you the decency of treating you with honesty and respect. I won't be your booty call any more, I have more self respect than that. Call me when you are willing to work on us, but not a moment sooner.

I wanted you back. I still do. If these are games you're playing, you're being successful at pushing me away. Keep it up and remind me why we broke up in the first place. If you don't want me back then just make a decision, don't constantly leave me on the "I don't know" note. I can live without you. I just don't want to. There isn't much left in me to wait around while you make that decision. It pains me to admit that maybe we just don't work, and never will.

I spent my entire life to date "not looking", and where has it got me? I'm a 24 year old virgin who completely fails with women. I am not unattractive, I am not devoid of goals, I am not stupid and I am not overweight. Now that I am "looking", it is opening my eyes to the many changes I need to make to my life. Obviously I can't turn back time, but I can throw out a warning to others not to sit back and expect it to happen.