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You have a beautiful soul KG.

I had a dream about you last night (or maybe it was this morning). Anyway, what I remember most was what you said when you were speaking directly from your heart. You said about our former relationship, "I was playing with you and I was not playing with you." I understand how that could be the truth as you see it, but I see it differently and always will. You were playing with me and I will never trust you again.

you know the woman I mean

the one who wanted to hold you

listen to your heart beat

with her ear on your chest

she boldly showed herself to you

reserving no thought nor feeling

confiding her secrets softly

sharing thoughts unfiltered

you explored yourselves together

learning yearnings previously unknown

without judgment or self-consciousness

opening hidden doors in dark corridors

then the sun rose so fast

both were blinded by the midday light

confusion abounded and grew

like night creatures both scurried away

there is no use for her now

self discovery sucks without you

so find her on your doorstep

keep her, she belongs to you

when it comes to living in today..I do my best

when I feel tired, sick and lonely..I do my best

when progress is barely perceptible..I do my best

when I'm on top of the world..I do my best

when there's a need I can fulfill..I do my best

when I'm feeling surrounded by adversity..I do my best

when good fortune smiles upon me..I do my best

when I'm feeling good for nothing..I do my best

when my positive energy is soaring..I do my best

when I don't know where I am..I do my best

when I am inspired and confident..I do my best

when the day is dreary and gray..I do my best

when everything goes wrong..I do my best

when I wonder what to do..I do my best

when I question my choices..I remember I've done my best

It was a very good year.

How beautifully melancholy, thank you for sharing.

Thanks, Capricorn! Part of me feels like I had to heal so I could write this poem. lol

Thanks, little buttercup, I like your name!

you are just the coolest person.

the world needs more like you.

anyone got a cloning machine?

Thank you, trezz, I think I can feel some of my rougher edges being smoothed like a rock in the river of life.

love it

 

Thanks, parts of it have been rolling around in my head for a while now. It feels really good to release it into the wild.

We search our broken hearts

We search our broken minds

We finally search the internet

And it's ena we find

We read and read

In wonderment we stare and stare

We hardly believe there's a place like this

Could it be true that people care?

The pressure builds inside us

We wonder what to do

We want to heal our wounds

Will they care for me too?

At last the pain increases

To be greater than the fear

And we pour out our hearts

Hoping someone will be here

A response or two is all it takes

To make us feel renewed

Each person that relates

Lifts our spirits and our mood

We swear our case is different

Our love was like no other

We'll feel this way for good

We're sure we can't recover

Encouragement is offered

We're sure no difference will it make

We accept it when we can

Our hearts feel skewered with a stake

We do everything we can think of

To convince ourselves there's hope

Of reconciling with our exes

Beyond every shadow of a doubt

We try all sorts of tactics

None of which will work

We bargain, pray, and stay away

Hoping for a miracle

At last we admit we're beaten

Things didn't turn out as we wished

Ready to begin recovering

Exhausted from exerting our last ditch

We want to feel better

We want to feel well

We want to be happy

But uncertain that we will

We take the NC challenge

We fight it tooth and nail

We wrestle with our demons

Locking ourselves in personal jail

Now we start contributing

To others and their needs

We reach out to the newcomers

And feel our spirits rise

One day when we're not looking

An ex-free hour of thought goes by

Did that really just happen to me?

I may just be all right!

And so it goes on ena

Round and round and round

Do stop in when your happy

Let your cheer abound

Remember when you're well again

That you were once so sad

And bring to us your method

Honoring us with hope freely shared

I hope she forgave herself by now. lol

Thanks, I'm getting very weary and need to sleep soon.

To all those who are hurting, tomorrow will be here soon

Bringing with it the possibilities of a whole new day

To all those who are lonely, here we have each other

No longer struggling by ourselves but helping and growing

To all those who are tired, peaceful slumber in a warm bed

So when you awaken you'll be face the day refreshed

To all those who are feeling ill, be well or better

Someone cares about your affliction and hopes you'll be alright

To all those who are happy, store this memory away

For the times you need to use it to brighten a bad day

To all those who are present, thanks for stopping in

I send you each my warmest smile and hug, goodnight

Amazing poem! Does it help you heal personally? And how do you go about writing these poems?

It does help me heal, very much I think. Sometimes I am releasing emotion, sometimes it's a chronicle, and others a memory. They just ooze out as I type them. I've learned not to edit, merely submit. lol

I really enjoyed this waveseer, thank you.

You're welcome, Spondence, once I got over my fear of criticism and started posting poems as they come life got better for me.

Thanks, CrazyAD, I'm so glad someone else enjoys the stuff that spills out of my head. lol

both of us made promises we wanted to keep

but both of us broke them wanting to weep

both of us made declarations of how much we cared

but both of us acted like we were scared

both of us made the other one happy

but both of us treated the other one crappy

both of us felt some very strong feelings

but both of us from them were caught reeling

both of us gave it our best shot

but both of us jumped when the fire got too hot

both of us intended to learn from the other

but both of us realized together we'd smother

both of us wished for a different ending

but both of us were relieved of pretending

both of us made a choice to let go

but both of us have used the experience to grow

I used to get terrible headaches. I still don't know why they started and why they ended. It was for about a year that I had them on and off. Now they just don't come anymore. I didn't ever throw up though, so you definitely have something going on different than I did. Morphine is great stuff when you need it. I hope you can find some answers that lead to an effective treatment for the root cause.

I know my mother tried Biofeed back years ago.....maybe something like that?

Yes, I find biofeedback, visualization, and meditation to be very similar in the sense that they are all based on directing your thoughts to effect your feelings.

It takes a bit of time, but yes. I guess it is the vasoconstriction that drives my blood pressure up as well.

I am thinking that some sort of meditation when you begin to feel the warning signs that a headache is starting to help you relax even though you're in pain could possibly help you shorten the duration of your suffering.

It goes high after the attack starts. Usually mine is lower end of normal...110/70.....when I have an attack it is 140/90. I think that is my body's reaction to severe pain though.

How about when it's over? Does your blood pressure return to normal levels?

How's your blood pressure? Does it happen more when it's high or low?

awesome poem.

Wow! That's very good. Really spells it out plainly not just for you but for a lot of people on this forum, including myself.

wow... that was really good...

Thanks, I appreciate your comments and sentiments.

that you weren't so into me

that you'd grown indifferent

that you toyed with my feelings

that you enjoyed having control

that you wanted to be different

that you were paralyzed by fear

that you wanted to feel more

that you felt you were pretending

that you would never feel secure

that you would never take a chance

that you would leave me if you could

that you saw me as dependent

that you saw me as weak

that you saw me as emotional

that you saw me as disposable

that I was wholly into you

that I would always be responsive

that I wanted to be vulnerable

that I only wanted love

that I wanted your sincerity

that I wanted freedom for you

that I wanted your honesty

that I wanted to be your confidant

that I accepted you completely

that I wouldn't have let you down

that I would have let you go

that I am my own woman

that I choose whom I love

that I am able to show my feelings

that I don't play second fiddle