Day 31. I'm going to skip ahead to now if you guys don't mind, I'll put down what I can remember from how I felt over the past month.
Day 1. Day after she initiates NC, feeling gutted that I'll never speak to her again, she's most likely taken me off msn so at least now I can really move on without any distractions.
Day 8. She pops up on msn after I thought she almost certainly would have deleted me from it. I'm not going to talk her, she told me never to contact her again so I'm not going to go against her word now, especially when it could make things alot worse.
Day 15. Whilst on msn and seeing her come online I don't have that feeling in my heart whereby I want to talk to her, even when I pull up her window I have no feeling. I'm cured Happiest day of life.
Day 22. Been having alot more fun out with the lads, dancing(something I thought I would never ever do), talking to new people and just generally being myself, I feel F'ing great and nothing can get me down.
Day 29. Starting to miss her slightly but every time I think of her I tell myself I'm better off without her and the thought is gone, though I still remember all the things we used to do and it makes me sad we're not together anymore I don't feel the need to contact her. Listening to some music will help
Day 30. The thoughts are coming back again but again they're not very strong and diminished straight away. I so wish she was here now My heart keeps overriding my head, now it needs to stop once and for all.
Day 31. Today. Miss her greatly. Hope she's happy with my "friend". I keep Zorbas advice in my head about rebound relationships and know deep down she will be back soon. Until then I have to be strong, and not just physically speaking either, but then again I shouldn't be waiting for her, I should be moving on. Got alot of parties coming up in the month, the girls at all of them will keep my mind off her