nowheretoturn

i'm not suicidal anymore, i just wanted to let my true feelings out about myself, its been inside my mind for 3 years, and i let it out in a form that suits me well, poetry, i now feel as if the weight has been lifted off my shoulders, i'm sorry that you had to endure the pain of bullying, i hope you are ok now, and i thank you very much for taking interest in my poem. . i will take a look at link removed, but THX

thx for the comment, well, the problems were at this school i used to go to, i went through excessive bully for 8 years, but i moved from there 2 years ago, and i'm doing great, i just have my ups and downs, my clear thoughts, and confused thoughts, so i decided to turn to ENotAlone, and i like it, it gives me a place to talk about my problems, and seek help, but all in all, i just am having confused thoughts about love, and stuff, normal teen problems. but the goal part is like my recovery, i know in my mind that there is a reason why i am on this planet.

i had to vent one night, so i wrote this poem, its a little dark, but i am alot better now, i just want to know what anyone else thinks, i have blanked out the swares with asterisks. LIFE I don't know what to do, I think i'm gonna fall, Breakdown to the floor, And do nothing but bawl, This plane of life, Is about to crash, And in my heart, There will be a big gash I'm tired of being hurt, Tired of being used, I'm tired of being laughed at, And tired of being abused, My mom always says, "Life will get better", How can that be, When I'm put through the shredder, Some times i think, Everyones above, I,m just lower, And i'll never find love, I've tried many pills, I've even smoked dope, But it never helps, There's no way to cope, I got out the gun, I wanted to be dead, I loaded it up, And put it to my head, As i stared down the barrel, At the end of the muzzle, I figured it out, The whole f***ing puzzle, Life may not be great, Life may be unfair, But f*** what they say, I don't f***ing care, so now i'm okay, i'm feeling alrite, i can see my goal, its in plain sight.