Infrared

I know this is he 30 day challenge, but I'm still happy I've made it this far and I can't wait for the next 16 days to pass and for me to be at day 100. All I can say is I'm doing great. I've also completely lost my desire to cyber stalk (check her myspace, check her friend's myspaces), and I know this is a sign that I think I'm in the home stretch for healing. Tomorrow is my birthday, and i use to be stone cold scared of this day coming up. "will she call me?!?!, what will I do if she doesn't?!?!" Now I don't care one bit. Even if she did, I will not be picking that phone up.

Tomorrow is day 63. I'm proud of myself and that I haven't initiated contact once during that time.

Thanks. Both you and Dnozzle are right and I realize I'm still scared to hear from her. I had been thinking about it because my birthday is coming up, which if she is going to make any contact it's going to be then. And thank you for the gmail advice, I may do that myself. It's just that I don't want her to be able to drop me a line easily. I want it to be where if she really needs to talk to me, then she has to dig me up. 41 days was difficult (42 today). I had my ups and downs. Today was a down, sundays always are. I was able to do it because of my friends who really came out in spaids for me. Also, this site has been a god send.

Thanks, yeah your right.

Today is day 41 of NC. Even if I wanted to, I'm too scared for how I'll physically feel if I tried to contact her. I use to have a problem with drunk dialing (long time ago), and while I erased her phone number, two weekends ago I got hammered and sincerely hope I didn't remember her number. If someone wanted to answer these quetions for me on this thread I would be much obliged. I've changed my phone number and blocked her on myspace. Not thats effective because it means if she tried to communicate to me through those mediums she can't. But all I can do with gmail is filter her mail to another folder (trash). That means she could send me a message and think that I got it and ignored it, when in reality I never saw it. I guess I should take the chance I might get a e-mail (birthday is soon), but I would prefer if it was difficult (but not impossible) for her to contact me. What do you think? should I just say screw anything and put the filter on? Also I had to make my myspace public for a friend to see some pics. I'm the Dumpee. Would it be better to go back to private? Any dumpers out there still check their exs myspace and prefer to see it private or public. Does it make you more over them?