The_echo

Staying with him isn't fair to either of you. If he wanted the relationship to last any longer- he wouldn't have cheated. Breaking up with him will be really hard, it will feel like a part of you is missing. And every day you're gonna cry- but everyday you're going to feel a bit better. It would hurt like hell, but it's better for both of you in the long run. I advise doing it with a friend around you- so you can't turn back to him. The first day is always the hardest- so do it in the late evening. Keep yourself with lots of things to do, and always someone around to stop you from going back to him.

I really don't know how to write this. This is my 8th attempt, so give me a break.. My ex boyfriend was horrible. He.. did some stuff.. argh. He pushed himself on me.. without my consent if you get my drift.. And this was about 5 years ago.. I've had plenty of space to talk about it, my family is aware, the police was aware but decided not to take action because I was his girlfriend at the time. Either way, I've made a world of progress. Abusive relationships really do mess you up. I've been with a very kind man for the past year and half, and he's always been very understanding about my past. About 4 months into our sex life, I started crying during sex. I would get very close to orgasm and then have a flash back and basically curl up and didn't want anyone near me. This went away in about 2 months. A few months later it came back. I found if I feel really depressed that day, My chances of crying are greater. Recently, I haven't been flashing back- sometimes I'm suddenly overwhelmed with the feeling that I am being used or a sex object. And I just start crying. And then sometimes- after orgasm, I have this flood of just EMOTION (I don't even know how to describe it) and THEN i start crying. I really want to know what's going on. And yes, I know I need to seek therapy. I'm moving in september to be a part of a large therapy group. But, I really want to know if I'm just a crier.. or If I'm fine and I just cry after sex. Either way, I would -really- like it to stop.