i fell in love with my girl back wen i was 17, the first day i met her i knew something was there. From that day it i saw her all the time for the next 2 years, it was the most amazing time of my life, everthing was perfect i really liked her family they liked me, she got on with my mates, things just cudnt get any better. we shared so many happy memories together. i had the deepest love for her and the great thing was i knew she really loved me back.
i wanted to live a bit, see the world, i suppose i was a bit scared of commitment as i knew i would want to spend the rest of my life with her. That led us to breaking up over a stupid argument. she tried to get back with me, and i really tried to resist and kept on holding it off. she tried for 4 monthes and then gave up. after she stoped trying time went by an i cudnt get her out of my head, i felt empty and pointless without her. i then realised what i had potentially lost.
i tried no contact with her but it didnt work we wer talking again by about a month, shes told me she stil loves me, as i do her. but as the time goes on although we stil have love for eachother i feel we are drifting apart. she always sed when we were together if we ever did break up she wud hope we could be together again later in life, which i suppose i have kinda clung onto.
I feel it was my fault for not taking opportunity and letting other people interfere, as people close to me used to say wen your a young lad you should be single having fun.
I really wana have a life first an go out with mates a lot more travell etc, but i dont no whether i shud try an get back with her again, or should i keep on hurtin and maybe the pain will go with time and hope to meet with her again in the future.
ive never talked about this to anyone before i kept it bottled up inside like most blokes, so i thought this would be a good place to start.
