sparklez

I used one of those pills and let me tell you, if you suffer with depression it will make it ten times worse.

I know the feeling, I try to look at it as staying low so if you get thrown down there it won't such a hard fall, but it is regardless. It's like you are expecting doom all the time. This is so not the way to live, but I can't help it I'm learning though

LOL! I like that! Thank you!

Thank you all so much for your advice, I will definitely check out the book because I am in love right now and with someone whom I was engaged to before. He and I went through a lot, hurt one another, but we were both young (both 21 at the time) and have reunited, now 34 years of age, but in the midst of our breakup, I grieved a lot over him. The relationship was long distance because he was in the service and it caused a great deal of problems, after the breakup, he got married, and is now divoced, out of the service, and the love is still there between the two of us. I just worry so much that it's ridiculous, as if my body is addicted to the adrenalin. I use to worry about my mother like that, worrying about something happening to her. Worrying about things I cannot control is the thing that drives me up a wall. My usual facial feature ---------> lol

I'm asking this because it's like when something good comes along in my life, I always worry about everything. Take for instance if I meet a new man, I worry so much about the fear of him hurting me that I start grieving and panicing when there is no need to. I've been hurt a lot in my life, especially by men that now I can't just enjoy living in the moment and enjoy being happy, but then if I am alone I complain about wanting to meet someone so bad, then when I meet him im scared, so scared that I go into panic I've gone to counseling, tried all of the medications and they don't work. I don't have this panic until I start having feeling's for someone