Hi all,
I am posting as I haven't really got anyone to discuss this with as its a strange situation! I am praying to god someone gives me a good answer to help clarify my situation as my head is spinning!! Get a coffee for a long story!
About 4yrs ago I met this wonderful man by e-mail. We got on fine, and got on even better in life and embarked on "relationship" - now I say this loosely as we didn't actually last that long. It was really bad timing for both of us! Even though we weren't "dating" we on and off saw each other which always resulted in sex.....time passed and it got messy on my side, I wanted to give "us" another go - he didn't - we ended up arguing and fell out.....well he asked me to not contact him anymore!
A few months later by bizarre circumstances, the chap started getting on with one of my friends - so cutting a long story short, me and Damien started talking again. Now at first it was nothing special, just every now and then, then the visits started again and the sex again....this threw me and I fell in love with him, I didn't have the guts to bring these feelings up to him, so I mailed him and heard nothing for 2 weeks - then we talked again with no mention of the e-mail and everything went back to normal, this brings us onto the last 6mths.....
Dame and I were on and off mailing until he got himself into a sticky situation - I spent a lot of time helping him and we became "close", for the first time since knowing him he invited me out clubbing, to meet his mates, just to go over to watch TV, you name it we spent nearly every weekend together....without sex, even though we slept in the same bed and he wanted cuddles - upon his insisting!
There were a couple of occasions where people mistook us for a couple and he didn't correct them, we would be watching TV and he would want me to massage his thighs, he would ask me probing questions about what I thought of him, he told me I was the only female he ever trusted, we were basically a couple without mentioning it or having sex....all the while this is going on, he does mention other women (not that he has slept with them) just who he likes, showing me pics asking my opinion etc and this puts me off saying anything in case of another blow out....
This brings it up to date and all of a sudden I am more or less dropped - I still see him, just not as often, and more at my request than his, his attitude has changed towards me, and he is now talking about women he is sleeping with etc....he is hanging out in lap dancing clubs and has new "friends" and is going out on the pull etc. He still keeps in touch, he told me the other day he was proud of my weight loss and I looked good, I am even working on a project for him by his request.......but he is different towards me....
Basically - I am totally in love with this man, and cant figure out what is going on...I was to slow on the whole "nice" time, should have said something...but then I wasn't sure!
I would just like for someone to say "it sounds like......"....do I walk away from him, is he playing with me, do I confess face 2 face my feelings.....what do I do because at the moment this is screwing me up.....really messing with my head??
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