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So I was checking out a friends page on myspace and pictures of my ex at a nightclub having a good old time. Funny how he said that when he gets back from cambodia everything will change and he will get another job, and be more responsible. And he’s so worried about not being there when I give birth. Doesn’t seem like it. He’s out all weekend acting like he’s not even a future dad. Am I right? While I’m home carrying his child. I hate him so much. I feel so low. Like what is wrong with me?? 9 months of being alone and dealing with this had really got me down. When will it ever get better?

Yes they have been there by my side the whole time. Thank god. It makes me feel like I don't need him. I can do this.

I see where you are coming from. I know in my heart my child does deserve a father. I'm just so scared of the unknown. I guess it's better to give him a chance than to resent it later. After all he will figure out on his own what kind of father he is. It's just hard imagining things now because it didn't happen yet. And I hate hearing stories of dad's popping in and out of there child's life. I don't see how he will get to bond with him if we are not living together and he's afraid to even come over to my dad's place. He told me.

Thanks!! Anyday know really. And I'm thinking of calling him after the baby is born. He doesn't understand that I need emotional support from loving supportive people that have been there for me this whole time. I'm thinking about calling him after the birth. Labor is stressful and I don't need his * * * in there making me more tense. As for his family and parents. They barely speak english and I don't trust them. They also made little contact with me the whole time. They have a totally different way of thinking. Money is all that matters. I really don't see them playing a major role. Same with the father. There family business is most important. And did I mention. My ex works for his mom. No real job. Doesn't pay taxes and I'm working FT paying for health insurance and taxes while my ex lives off mommy and daddy for everything. IT MAKES ME SICK!! He's 25. When will he ever grow up?

I just don't see him as being a good role model. If he would have shown me more responsibilty and was more supportive during my pregnancy than maybe I wouldn't have such hatred towards him. He's immature and selfish. Why rush into another relationship with some girl that is just using him. I'm hoping all of these thoughts will not seem so big to me once I have my baby in my arms.

I'm new here and really need some advice. Here is a brief history of my relationship drama... -- 3 year relationship ended March 06. He kissed another girl in cambodia while vactioning. This was after knowing I was carrying his baby (1month). -- Came back. Made love to me and then 2 days later confessed to hooking up with this girl. Said he was unhappy and sorry for staying in the relationship, but that this girl made him happy. -- No longer wanted to be with me. Just be "friends". Messed around with me once. We had sex and he told me that it didn't mean anything, that we are not together. Text me dirty messages and ask me out to eat. But just as friends. Yeah okay. He went out and messed with other girls and partied. Still don't understand why he wouldn't want to try to work things out with me. -- Went to one doctor visit..only because I invited him. He told me he doesn't want to be with me, but will help me out. -- Just recently found out that he went back to cambodia for another month long trip and came back engaged or married to this 19 year old chick. Just so she can eventually come over to the U.S. He told me he no longer has feelings for me and can't understand why I just can't move on. -- He didn't call me for check on me and now that I'm like 12 days away from my due date he texts me to say that he wants to be there for the birth of "his kid". I never responded to his texts. Should I feel quilty for not wanting him there. He makes me sick. I can't stand him. I just wish he would worry about his new wife and have babies with her and just leave "us" alone. He doesn't communicate well with me and I never get a straight answer as to what role other than providing money for me and the baby. He says stuff like if you can't take care of him. I will. Please help. There is so much to this story. There is no words to describe how I'm feeling. Hurt, Abandoned, Confused. I don't even feel like he is a daddy. Just a sperm donor. Am I being selfish? I don't know how I'm gonna deal with seeing him, and knowing that he doesn't look at me the same way. It's like he's a totally different person and how am I supposed to move on. How could he marry some girl he barely knows and not look back on "us". How do I deal?