I'm new to this site...Hi everyone...Umm...Well my boyfriend or should I say "ex-boyfriend" just broke up with me. We were together for almost two years. I'm only 17, and this has been the longest relationship I've been in. The longest me and this guy have ever broken up "on and off" was 13 hrs. I hope he doesn't call me or contact me saying he wants me back and he's sorry.
The funny thing is
He just joined the Navy about six months ago right after graduating High school (so its been a long distance thing)
He's underway close to Pakistan
And yesterday I told him I WAS pregnant but I miscarried
He has always wanted to have a child and I kinda figured I was pregnant but by the time I went to the doctor I was miscarrying at no more than a 1 week and 1/2 of pregnancy.
I found out I was pregnant on Monday but I didn't tell him right away because the doctor figured I was miscarrying but wasn't sure and I knew my boyfriend would be worried so I decided to wait until the doctor knew for sure I wasn't pregnant before telling him...
We've been contacting each other via email because he can't talk on the phones over there...Today when I got home I see an email from him saying "this is bye not talk to you later" all because "I can't give him a child" or "I can't give him what he wants" (quote)...I was just waiting because I knew he would act rash but I didn't know he was this cold hearted. It hurts
I've been in and out of the doctor's office and hospital all this week due to the miscarriage and it kinda saddens me that it happened (I feel even worst about then he does even though it wasn't a planned pregnancy), but couldn't he sympathize with me? Yes he could have and I can't believe he just up and left me when I needed him in this most trying time.
I'm so angry and upset. I didn't even bother to email him back because I know it'll just fuel him if I respond. I'm pissed and I guess I'm hurt but I don't feel it right now because I'm so mad but it will find me later...
I never knew a person could be so cold hearted. I don't want to have anything to do with him anymore. Even if he was upset about me losing the child, there was no good reason why I should be treated like that. I think cheating would have been better than this. I'm kinda glad I had that miscarriage because he's immature and ungrateful of the love I've given to him. All my hard work was worth it because it now leaves me with a life's lesson
Now I'm going to burn all the he's ever given me so that his vivid memory can be vanquished and maybe it will help my broken heart mend a little better. I don't want anything that relates to him near me (no pictures, no gifts, clothes he bought, NOTHING!)
