Dial595Escape

I really don't know what you mean by "have you really tried making new friends" After I first got here I tried to catch conversations with anyone my age I met. at the bus stop, cashiers at the grocery store, the video stores> Most are girls with boyfriend, the guys are weirded out by me talking to them so i generally don't, and the rest totally ignore me.

Anyone? ~~

I already volunteer many extra hours at my new job so anything wouldn't leave any hours left in the day. Since I've focused so much at my new job I've gained 2 promotions and 2 raises. I go back to work hours after my shift is over now - it seems to feel more "At home" than home now. and, there are friendly people there and smiles on their faces. They often ask why I always come to work on my days off and why i stay so late - I just tell them it's the extra work I do as a manager. Whatever, I socialize mostly. It's been many months since I started this thread and I don't feel like much has changed. Well, I left my girlfriend to persue a fresh relationship... I also started to get back in contact with a few friends I went to highschool with to spend time with. This seems to be going well - I think I should move closer to my old highschool where my old friends live. Maybe moving away was a mistake? I've also started majorly obsessing over a long-time highschool crush (a good 7 year crush now) What the hell is happening to me? am I just confused, off track, or becoming depressed or what?

Well, I just lost my job so I guess that got rid of that idea. But even then my co-workers were 15 years older than me. My girlfriend is very much a loner like me - which is also putting a huge strain on our relationship. And no, I don't do any volunteer work.

It seems to me that this could be the cause for the recent depression I have experienced over the past few months. I did not go to high school in the are I am living now so I do not have the opportunity of a "lunch hour" to find my social group. When I graduated in 2004 , I began working full-time and moved out immediately to a different city – I've been living here ever since. It's been over 2 years now and I have only made 2 true friends in the area – both being ex\current girlfriend(s). When I am not with my girlfriend and I travel into the city, I see groups of people together at the restaurants and friends at the pool hall, etc. But when your in the big city in the big malls you can't approach anyone. --- Through the beginning of my high school half-decade some 6 years ago I slowly built up friendships with my peers which was something that came naturally to me. The situation of a lunch hour is rather rare when it comes to the unique environment that contains it – school. Since I graduated from high school I decided that I wanted to establish myself as a self-supporting person before I rushed myself into a decision for my career.

Spending 4, 6, and even 10 months working on a cruise line will set me far away from this city that I call home. Working every day of the week for over 10 hours a day will bring a very obvious financial gain by saving me bills normally expended by day-to-day activities. Though at this point in my life, I'm looking for a way to advance my social circle and not disable my ability to peruse a romantic relationship. I had long dreamed that the long-lost woman of my dreams would be found in countries I found very unfamiliar, being a Canadian resident. Though, the ability to travel to these exotic worlds is limited by my financial standpoints. It would cost thousands of dollars to make that expanse possible – working for a cruise line, however gave me an insight to live and work with people from other countries. Maybe to one day meet the woman of my dreams. Have any of you worked on a cruise line? Have any of you worked in an industry where you did nothing but work your entire week and tried to enjoy life as it passed around you?