Freshie58

Hmm I have a tough choice to make. Two girls A.Jennifer The good things 1.she likes me 2.crazy fun 3.to my knowledge is not dating anyone 4.supposed to be pretty(I've seen her twice but didnt know it so i actually don't know what she looks like) 5.We can have a fairly deep conversation together the bad things 1.not a virgin 2.has tried to commit suicide before(more than once and in more than one way) B.Rachel The good things 1.very attractive 2.mature 3.fun to be with 4.virgin the bad things 1.don't really know her in depth 2.not really able to speak to her a lot(don't get to see her often) I like them both very much.I just dont know.

I no I'm not heartless I realise this things you lose don't just disappear into thin air someone takes them (my condolences to anyone who has exprienced this) but like that one song "love is a battlefield"

I'd like to have her Email adress,but just how do i get it? (she's kinda already got a boy friend) I'd like to be a guyfriend she knows she can count on,and then when the time comes(aka she gets rid of her boyfriend) ask her out.Striking while the iron's hot.

Um,no we dont see each other that much. Sadly i only usually get to see her one or two seconds a day,but i love those few seconds.thats my favorite part of the day.

I don't get to go to all the games,and i can't "flirt" with her,she is a cheer leader,and usually busy at the games.

I wasnt feeling very well today(migraine) I went to the office at school and i got some painkiller,but when i went in the girl i really like was there. I said hi(then the hairs on the back of my neck stood up) and she said hi back,kinda like she realises i exist.After I got to the water fountain(before i took the medicine)i felt better just from talking to her.(I had been fasting for 2 days and praying to the Lord for an oppertunity to speak to her) She and i dont have the same classes considering she is a year older than me and we don't have the same lunch period,so seeing her made my day. The only other oppertunnity i get to see her is at our highschool football games.

I just got adjusted to highschool. I dont know where i fit in and things are just weird. I'm shy (duh)and my friend is wanting to get me a girlfriend and i dont know if he is approching it the right way. There is one girl i'm interested in,but the odds aren't stacked in my favor(A year older than me,varsity cheerleader,curently has a boy friend) I don't want to get sucked into the whole "neogoth" thing,but i just don't know which niche i fit in with.