tiffanium

I couldn't tell if he gets a bonner or not? his jeans are kinda thick ? or he already gets it? haha. But he told me he gets bonner when he knows he's about to see me, and it makes me happy ? hahah.

Now that I notice haha. I used to listen to foreign language (Korean) eventhough I dont understand, but I listen because the music is good. Now I listen more to songs that I understand. haha. I guess because the some lyrics seem to talk about my relationship ...etc.

So I broke up 3 months ago. First month I kept contact with him as friends, but sometimes he kept asking me to get back to him. One day I said I'm not thinking about getting back; he got mad, sweared at me, and said he will not see or talk to me and I should not contact him. I got hurt by his words so I thought NC could be the best solution, so I decided not to contact him. A week later he contacted me again, but I didn't want to pick up because I know the conversation would end up just like before. Then he started sending message with angry words and all. Then I called him and explained to him one more time; this time he accepted and wished me luck. Then a week later, he called again, I tried not to pick up or reply anything. His messages began with sweet talk like he'll wait, sorry, etc. then it came to I'm a liar, selfish... etc. Recently, i noticed the number of his messages/call decreases, but last week, on the day I hung out with my roommates, one of them called him out and let him used her fone to call me, so I pick up without knowing that its him. Now he's back to the time when we first got into NC. Should I call him and explain to him again? Or should I stick with the NC rule? I dont know why but everytime i read his message saying he will live well, try his best in everything, I feel happy and think of maybe giving him a call. But then the next day, his message are pretty mean; its just make me feel like its not a good time to call him. I used to think I will start calling him again maybe three months or half a year later when I know he's completely over me, then we can start to be friends again, but u think that is possible? is it normal for him to change his mood/tone like that? I know he's an impatient man, get mad easily ... but .. i dont know wat to do to help him get over this anymore. I felt bad for ignoring him, but talking him is like ... a big pressure for me, like everything I say, he just don't accept it and keep twisting my words.