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Torture Me
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Shred my skin and pierce my eyes
Let me down, hear my cries
Torture makes a person strong
I've needed torture all along.
Make me cry, save my tears
Keep me in a cage for years
Tear me up and watch me cave
This kind of torture is what I crave
Stretch me till I start to break
Make it last, I'll feel the hate
Build me up and let me fall
Force me to taste my blood on the wall
Throw me in and hold me under
Make a scream that sounds like thunder
Shred my skin and pierce my eyes
Let me down, hear my cries
Torture makes a person strong
I've needed torture all along.
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Scream
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Love in the form of liquid
Draining you of life
A rose red path down your sheet white skin
Love is pain, they all say this
The warnings are blocked,
For you have your own ways
Scream it, scream
Let it all go
Dark will overcome you
Keep on screaming
Scream away the fear,
The Pain
The Guilt
Scream until you can't
Scream all you wish
For screaming solves nothing,
And everything you need
The scream of the razor on your skin
Make the scream bleed.
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Delightful Death
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Stop, stop, leave me here.
Don't look back, you'll die I fear
Caged like an animal, she cries into the darkness
"I hope you're happy with your new life!"
Help me die, help me die,
I think we can do it, if we try
I don't want to live here, not here in the dark
Help me die, just help me die
You'll offer your hand, but I won't reach
This is how it's supposed to be
The clutter and mess, it'll all be gone
Blown away with the wind, towards the dawn
The dawn of our delightful death
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Awww. I really enjoyed that! It's adorable.
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My family? I would hardly call it a family. I can't talk to them at all. My only sibling has moved away and I really don't want anything to do with him. He gave me hell as a child.
I just really want to hit something right now, but I feel too weak. I haven't felt this way in...well, I don't think I've *ever* felt quite like this before.
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To get right to the point, I'm falling apart. Both emotionally and mentally. I just had a relapse and sliced the hell out of my wrist again. But the worst thing about it is that I did it while talking to two people online. I told them both. Is that wrong? I wanted someone to help me feel better, so I went fishing for compassion. (I didn't get any, but that's not the point.) I can't help feeling guilty now.
I'm literally shaking...I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel so alone, even though I'm not. I've been seriously contemplating suicide for the past few days. Whenever I try to talk to people about it, they just tell me to stop being emo. I;m NOT being emo, I just want to get away.
I have the feeling my friends are getting bored with me, or annoyed because I have no self control, or I'm too insecure. But I can't help it. I;ve always been that way. I'm just waiting for one or all of them to up and leave, just like another guy did.
And recently, another guy has come into my life. He's the sweetest guy ever, and I find myself attracted to him in more ways than one. But he's completely unattainable, for several reasons.
My two best friends are getting married soon. I'm so happy for them, but they just seem so busy lately...it's almost like they never have time for me anymore. And I really love them, so it hurts when they don't talk to me for days at a time.
And school is another thing. It's really starting to piss me off. I've already been threatened, and had a rumor started about me.
*sigh* I feel like I'm going insane.
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I realize that, that's why I wrote this. It's my way of letting go. And thank you for you compliment.
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To Say Goodbye
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You leave me here waiting
You don't pick up the phone
As I stand this night away thinking
"What the hell did have I done wrong?"
My love now is worthless if I can't give it to you
Now my heart is broken,
You have torn it in two.
I really hope you're happy
With your brand new life
I know it's better than anything you could see in me
So you just left me be.
The worst thing, I know
Is the way I can't hate you.
In my broken heart you'll always reside,
Could I just hear your voice once more,
Even if it's to say goodbye?
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It's not odd at all. Why you would want to change it is beyond me.
It's lovely, Steven. Please don't change a word of it.
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Really? You think telling a lie is okay in my situation?
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I realize that. It's part of the reason I want to *end* the relationship.
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He's eighteen.
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No, my parents don't know. They don't know a lot of what goes on with me, I'd really like to keep it that way.
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Okay, here's the story: I met this guy a while ago who's a lot older than me. Because I'm stupid, I said yes when he asked me out. Now, I'm completely uncomfortable. I find I become near physically sick when he touches me in any way. I have to break up with him, but I'm not sure how to do it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.
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Wow. That was amazing. Best I've read in a long while. How long have you been writing poetry? You have a natural talent, Steven. Remember, use it to the best of your ability. Wonderful job.
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I used to be addicted to the Internet to the point it was almost like a disorder for me. I didn't go anywhere, I didn't see anyone, I just surfed and chatted. I honestly think a big part of it was my tendency of being overly insecure. I hated the way I looked, (and still do, somewhat) and I didn't want anybody I didn't know seeing me. I'm a lot better about it now, though. I'll go out often, but I still get online every day.
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You have talent, absolutely. I enjoyed reading these. Keep it up!
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If you said "stop" or anything of the sort before or duing sex, and he didn't stop right then, then yes, it's rape. It doesn't matter if you said it was okay before. If you said no after, while you were having sex and he didn't stop, it's rape. But remember, it's NOT your fault. That guy was obviously an idiot and a pig and needs to be taught a lesson.
If you ever need to talk to someone, feel free to PM me, okay? And remember, this was NOT your fault.
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Is this natural? I'm bisexual, and I'm having feeling for a certain trans woman...I've never had any feelings like this before. Any advice? Please?
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I agree. Very good job, Slightlybent.
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Amazing! I really enjoyed reading this.
HELP! What are you supposed to do when...
in Sex and Romance
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...your own MOTHER buys you a...sex toy?
This is humiliating. What am I supposed to say?