kitcat817

Thank you for your advice. It really does mean a lot to me...especially now b/c I feel like I have no one. I'm going to try to leave him alone. It's going to take all my energy to resist the urge to talk to him, txt him, email him, and especially see him. I just miss him so much. I would give up anything in a heartbeat just to have him hold me in his arms. I miss his touch sooo badly. When he would put his hand in the small of my back and lead me into a room, I just remember how safe that made me feel. I miss his smile, his eyes, his laugh, his voice, his hands, his body, his lips, everything about him that made me fall in love w/ him. I would pay any price to have all that back now. Oh! I just can't stop crying! I don't think I've ever felt so much pain in my life. Honestly, I wish I could hug you all for your words of comfort and advice. It means the world to me. Thank you again...

Hi, This is the first time I'm using this. So, I'm gonna give it a whirl. Well, my boyfriend and I just broke up on June 7th. We had been together for 3 years, 7 months, and 4 days. We've had a lot going on over the past recent months, new jobs, a job relocation w/ him, and a lot of fighting. I've been really frustrated for a long time b/c we've never talked about whether or not we had a future together. It was b/c he never felt comfortable talking about it. So, I avoided the topic. But then just recently, I couldn't take it any longer, mainly b/c of his job relocation. So, when he called me, I prompted him and then asked him, "Do we have a future together? Is engagement or marriage in the cards for us in the future?" He bascially said no. He said he felt he wasn't ready yet to settle down. He feels like he is still growing and changing. He said he still has goals that he wants to pursue that don't involve starting a family just yet. He explained to me, since he still feels this way, he believes it wouldn't be fair to me; it wouldn't be fair to have me wait for him any longer. He also said that his feelings for me had changed. He doesn't love me like he used to love me. His heart isn't in our relationship 100% anymore. I do understand this way of thinking. It's b/c we have been fighting a lot, which has been caused by our changes in jobs, his job relocation, and the frustrations built up, mainly on my part, b/c of the uncertainty of our future together. I am absolutely heartbroken. I honestly did not expect him to respond this way. I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest and then stomped on 1000times. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel so lost, confused, and alone. I feel like all this time together was for nothing. I will admit I have resorted to desparate measures. I have called him repeatedly to the point where he doesn't want to speak w/ me. I have begged him to come back to me. I have called him crying and shouting. I have treated him rudely b/c of the pain and sadness that I'm feeling. I have even gone to his new location to try to convince him to come back to me. I'm sure you know that this all didn't go over well w/ him. I now know that it was wrong of me to do. I should have left him alone so he could try to collect his thoughts and actually have time to miss me. I know all of what I did was wrong. I just miss him so much. I love him w/ all my heart and soul. I feel like half of me has died now. I just don't know what to do anymore. It's so hard to resist calling him, texting him, going to visit him, or even emailing him. I don't know how to control myself. Please advise. I want him to come back to me. I want him to miss me. I want him to love me again like he did before. What can I do? Please offer all advice possibly. I'm absolutely miserable. I can't get the intense and almost unbearable pain to go away. Help me please. I would appreciate anything you have to offer to me. Thank you for taking out the time to read this. I means a lot to me. Feeling lost, confused, heartbroken, and saddened... Kitcat817