I am So confused. Last year I met who I believe to be the love of my life. It was at this little teen club. And the very first night I met him we got together after a night worth of dancing. Well i didn't give him my number so i didn't talk to him for 2 whole months. Well i guess it was coincedince that one day he pops up at my friends house the same time as me. I was so happy but him being a boy i thought what anybody would after two months of not speaking he forgot about me (keep in mind we got together the first time we met) But to my surprise we were still together. So from then on we were a perfect couple. He called me i called him it was all good. Especially because he showed so much affection and i need it. After about four and a half months him and i had sex. After one time another and another. He was a part of me and i was a part of him. By the end of the fourth month tho i was hearing too many rumors about him cheating on me. I even caught him in situations that he seemed like he was cheating. But i loved him so i trusted him but by the end of the 5th month it was too much so i let him go. And i guess we have a thing for two month seperations because we separated for another two months and we didn't call or anything. But two months later, a lil after halloween he called me. The first thing he admited is to having feelings for me. so the next two weekends he came over, we hooked up (as in had sex) and the third week we got back together. Then in january my cousin who is also my best friend came to visit in lancaster. She is younger than i am by a few months. We kept talking about the way my boyfriend began treating me. He acted like i was nothin. He was lettin his brothers and his friends call me a ho and a bitch. and me and her began talking about how we felt he would end up doing the same thing. I said if he called me out of my name i wuold leave him and sure enugh only like one week later he did. I was shocked and i didnt know what to do. I couldnt think so i just said it was over. I never knew how much i would regret it. But he got with someone else. Now when it comes to boys i say i am obsessd with him. I think about no other boy but him. A bunch of boys are asking me out but i only want to be with Cameron.( my ex;s name by the way) Well to my luck i guess Cam and his girl broke up a week ago. So now i have a chance but i am too shy to tell him anything and i feel like he likes his ex more than me. I am confused and thats why i am posting this. Somebody please help me and let me know what i should do. Should i talk to him and express myself and see what happens or is he not good? Many people say i deserve better. I know it's my problem but if anyone can help and tell me what they think i would really appreciate it because i really love this boy and i know he loves me too. Well at least i think he does. But i really feel like i want to be with him and he doesn't want to be with me. And i can't talk to him. I know he loves conversation but i dont know what to say. Can anyone help on that too?
