Hi im new here,
wright just now im so pissed of its unbelieveable, for the last two days iv been looking at 2 bottles of 500mg of parocetomal and seriously thinking about swallowing them. Dont know whats stopping me i want out of this world iv been suicidle on and of all my life. Iv been batteling an ongoing lost cause of depression,moodswings, and severe selfloathing all my life and cant fight no more i give up. Im a missfit usless and a complete faliure and have achieved nothing for my time on this earth. Even when i get positve about doing something with my life i cant see it threw because depression and other mental issues f...k it up. I have nothing to live for no partner ,friends, career enjoyment, i feel like an outcast from society a freak like iv always been detached from others like im an imposter of my own body, feel brain dead.Theres something seriously wrong with me my lifes one big missrable experience i dont live i excist, im sick of it.
Im sick of moaning and being negative feeling sorry for myself im ashamed of wasting my life and not being stronger .Im sick of being jealious of everyones happiness being me is torture i want out, its frustrating knowing life can be good for folk . I wonder what its like to be happy and have a fufilling life something il never know.
Anyway i dont care if i go to hell im already there besides i dont believe in god , anyone else feeling bad rest asured you wont be as a big waste of space as what i am