After reading my own post I realize that, as pointed out to me, I DON'T have the right to pick and choose what comments, opinions, or criticisms that may come my way. I guess I really need to consider all sides of the issue in order to make a decision. I will go into a little more detail though and give more information about myself. First of all, I will admit to the fact that I am "damaged goods" if you will. I am 35 years old and I am a former US Marine who served in the first Gulf War and participated in other armed conflicts around the world during this time. In that time, I committed what I feel to be atrocious acts and took the lives of others. For these acts, I feel nothing. No guilt, no remorse, no repent. Now, there is something fundamentally wrong with that and, thereforeeee, me if I can shut this off and never look back and feel anything for the things I have done. I love my wife dearly, but I consciously make the choice to not want to love a child and I could disappear from the face of the earth and never look back and never feel anything one way or another so, that being said, I don't think guilt is an issue here. Now let's touch on the topic of a vasectomy. About 2 1/2 years ago I went to see a doctor and scheduled to have a vasectomy because my wife mentioned that she didn't want to take the pill anymore. She knew how I felt about kids and we had the discussion not only before the marriage, but again at this time as well. At the end of this conversation, she made it clear to me that if I went through with a vasecomy our marriage was over. She decided to go ahead and stay on the pill, but it was at this time I could sense my present predicament coming to pass. As for the subject of sex; as soon as I found out that she had stopped taking the pill, I immediately began abstaining from sex and, yes, I DID say no on more than one occasion. All it took was the one time that we had sex and I had no idea that she had stopped taking the pill. When it comes to dying alone, i'd have to say that I really couldn't care less either way. I know that with way that I have lived my life and the things that I have put myself through I will not live to be a ripe old age. I have always been somewhat of a loner and I thrive when I am left alone. I know that I will most likely die doing something stupid yet something that I love. Before we married, we had the "kid" discussion and I told her that I did not know if I wanted to have kids or not. She was fine with that at the time. However, over time, her mind changed and she decided that she just had to have kids. I would have been fine with divorcing at that time, but she flat out told me that she would resign to the fact that she would "never know the joy of being a mother" and she would focus on her career. Now that was very deceptive and it became even more deceptive and just sneaky and wrong when she decided to stop taking the pill and not tell me. That is not only wrong, it is entrapment. If she wants to raise this child, that's her decision, but I don't have to let it ruin my life. My "hopes and dreams" consist of continuing to do as I (we) have over the past 7 years. We have travelled extensively and that has been my passion for as long as I can remember. The type of travel that we do cannot be conducted with a kid in tow. In the past 15 years, I have visited 102 countries and I still have 90 left to go before acomplishing my lifetime goal. This is the reason that I refuse to have children. Selfish, yes, maybe. Foolish? Not necessarily. What seems to be foolish to me is to give up your life's goals to appease the conniving nature of your partner. It DOES take two to make a baby, but it takes only one to lie and entrap the other. I have seen too many people ruined in this manner and I just cannot allow myself to be one of those people. I have come to terms with the fact that I will most likely die alone and bitter and I will not complain one bit as it is the choice that I have made. I have to say that I agree with the first response in saying that I need to get out now so that she may have a chance to find someone else who will love the child and her. This seems the most humane and logical choice. When it comes to disappearing and not taking care of financial "reponsibility", that is not really an issue as my wife is rather affluent and has ample means to care for the kid. Her point to me is that she would pursue financial support so that I will be forced to maintain some type of contact whether it be physical, emotional, or whatever. Of course, there is no court in the US that WOULD ever rule in a man's favor in this situation, but, one would have to be a resident of this country in order for them to pursue punshment under such a ruling. Being that I own property, a home, and a substantial bank account in another country I HIGHLY doubt that such a ruling would ever have an effect on me for as long as I should ever live. My conundrum boils down to a moral and ethical standpoint. Sure, it is wrong to leave a woman when she is pregnant, but how much more or less wrong is it for that same woman to entrap the father and to try and force it upon him to pay for her meanness? I don't think that that's right. I feel that I am no shining example of a good person by any means and that doesn't change anything. I tried counselling on more than one occasion and it has turned to out to be nothing but a waste of time and money on every one of them so I believe that I am just pretty much beyond that type of help. At this point, I am running out of options.