muchinlove

As a matter of fact I am... I just started it about two months ago. That is the thing though, Like I said, I can speculate on what it is stemed from.. but in the end I have to learn how to control it and really prevent it too. Has that happened to you as a result of the Pill?

You know the first part of your story hit home a little.. I was very closed when I met my bf... I am now so open and know that he is the same way you are. I appreciate it and I just needed to put my * * * * behind me. Don't get me wrong.. I still have my issues and insecurities but I really think that if she is not willing to compromise here then maybe you should take a second look. For me, I am willing to do whatever it takes to keep my bf happy and the relationship well... She may have had some issues but if she sees you hurting this much and can't stop to think about how it makes you feel then maybe she isn't right for you. Again, I know I have some insecurities and mood swings.. but I can understand how it hurts my bf and I try to do right... I really try and mean well... i want him to be happy... You should be happy too!

I am completely lost on what to do. I am in the most amazing relationship that I have ever been in my whole life. The guy I am with treats me like I have never been treated before. But that isn't the issue. The issue is me. I can sit here and speculate on why I do what I do but it still doesn't make sense and I don't want to make up excuses for my behavior. To try and keep it to the point.. there are time when I completely lash out on him for no reason. There is something in my head that completely turns off everything and wants to push him away. I have no idea why... I really don't want to push him away but I am sure acting like it. It is like I am pushing him to break up with me. It is when I am in a "low-mood" and everything seems to be negative with me... then it all snowballs into a fight. he doesn't even fight back... I have no idea why it is I do it.. I know when I am pretty tired or a little irritated I can get like that but it just isn't fair to him. I don't want to lose him and I thank god he is so patient with me and he said he will do what it takes to work through this with me.. but it hurts him. He feels like he frustrates me or that I really don't want to be with him.. which is sooooo not true. Has anyone ever gotten like this before? I don't know, major moodswings? Just feels like no matter what once I get on a roll there is no stopping me until I say stupid things. I seriously feel crazy when it happens. And I am a pretty normal person lol... Any advice or suggestions would help!! Thanks!