mnsprob

WRONG! Beauty is in the eye of the BEER holder!!!.....that's probably why you guys still haven't figured it out

thanks for your replies guys i feel better already know someone have been through this....Its really hard to overcome something that's wired to your brain since childhood. There are days when I really feel good and talk to people but its just frustrating how I couldnt keep a conversation rolling since my shyness all of a sudden pops back again and I suddenly feel that I'm beeing observed and judged. i know its all im my head..people have been (surprisingly) nice to me. some would just come up and ask me how my day was or give me a handshake or smile, but I think i have some trust issues with people since my childhood has been traumatic. my parents separated and i had a bad relationship with my step mom. my family was also dysfuntional and up to now i dont have good relationships with them....its not my fault tho since i was a child when i last talked to them. but its these things in the past that creeps back and haunt me or prevent me from trusting people....at least thats my understanding of my behavior. It really sux when everyone around you is friendly but for some reason your head FEARS them and its just not right.

I've been shy most my life but I've been making strides in trying to overcome it, but as of late I feel like im losing hope. Im a OT student and my future work requires me to interact with a lot of people. I've tried opening up to people and started to say hi to almost everyone I encounter however I've realized that at some point people (my classmates) would eventually grow tired of me saying hi all the time but not conversing with them. I do make small talk sometimes but usually lasts about 2 mins then i would start to feel uncomfortable and I feel like other people would sense it. I really want to change but its just simply too hard when you're shy. I feel left out when everyone has someone to talk to but not me. If and when I do get in a group setting I end up not knowing what to say, so I feel left out again and I dont want to come out as stuck up when I dont talk to anyone. I feel so isolated right now and I don't have a lot of friends either that I can talk to.....Please guys.....I need some advice