survive

i need strength, help me to keep away from him. i found text messages betwee my fiance and my friend, sexual texts. and, i am horrified for her stapping me in the back and for him hurting and cheating on me. he does not know that i know this. i am trying to keep away from him, i told i do not want to be with him. he cries, begs. all i feel is hate for him and her. but, i love him. i just want him. but, i cant go back to him i need strength,