LynLu

Yeah, this stuff is hard. My love is 3000 miles away I sometimes worry myself sick inside mostly because I've been in hurtful or abusive relationships in the past. After going through the "emotions" that have nothing to do with him, we talk and everything is wonderful as usual. It's like I go through a rollercoaster all by myself. So far I'm good at not letting on about any of it however I've taken up smoking and drinking.....uuuugggh!! That is sooo bad, I know. I do know that his is the right one for me - when we are together it is always just right and I love him so much. I feel he is my soulmate so I have to work on getting over my own personal "demons" so to speak. Any suggestions in ways to deal with it???

I understand exactly what you are going through. I am in a similar situation and it's soooooooo hard. I know everyone says - just hang out with friends or pick up a hobby - well I have a 2 year old and a 3 year old so I can't hardly ever do ANYTHING like that. I fell in love with someone who I was friend with for 3 years via email. After we spent a week together - we both realized how strongly we care for one another. He has all the extras in his life to get by day to day while I struggle as you do. I just love him so much it hurts to be apart. I am so busy taking care of children and trying to make ends meet - but it's not self-gratifying time - it's only sacrifice at this point and inside I'm so lonely and miss him so much it's unbearable at times. You can get through it - just hang on to the memories of the good times together and try to make time your friend instead of your enemy. It's hard to do - I know - when you're so in love with someone and can't hold them when you want to, but if it's true love and meant to be you will be together one day - just focus on getting through this time apart. I hate it too......trust me.