Hello,
Ummm... where to start.
Well, my gf and I have been seeing each other for a while now, its getting fairly deep too. The things we talk about are pretty serious and cover things like marriage, children and so on.
The thing is it was all ok, up until now, for some reason I feel like, im being rushed, like I want it to be unpredictable but it would involve change. We broke up before, well she broke up with me to be more exact, because she was feeling then, what i am now, she said she was scared of the extent of the commitment she would need to and have to enforce upon her self in order to be with me, not talking bout infidelity more like commiting thoughts and treating each other more or less like a husband and wife. This all sounds crazy.... what makes it more awkward is that were only 16. We got back together, she told me she missed the things we had talked about and dreamed off, we were apart for only a week or so... now it seems, i want us to be just like any typical 16 year old couple, but i know, that its impossible, because our love has grown on our imagination and the passion and intensity that we share... I dont know why all of a sudden, i flicked like that and i dont know what to do. I love her and i want to be with her, but its draining me. She is the best girl i ever known, i could even say something as strange as, i even think and feel that were soul mates... Though, i cant figure out whats driving me to lament the things were doing, i think it could be because we've matured in our relationship to soon and to fast. It also might be because i had to grow up quicker in my self, due to the death of my father....I dont want to brake up with her, or go on a brake, because im scared of loosing her and i can see how much it would hurt her and me....
I dont know what answer or what solution i need, i dont know what to do or feel...I do need help with this though....
Thank you.
