I would advice, that everyone at some point feels the same way as you s, I struggled with that for a long time, trust me when I say it's all in your mind, perhaps I for sure is that people don't hate for no reason, they certainly wish to be like you, they just can't figure how, so learn to control you emotions and most importantly your mind, go on persue your passions and better your self one day you will realise that it was all in your mind, so go on and be yourself don't change for people, even them trust me they feel the same way.