I am completely destroied..... not sure what to do. My wife has asked me to get a divorce, 2 days before she went for a bussines trip. She mention that we would talk in 2 weeks after she comes back.
I am not sure where to stand. we have been married for a little bit over 1 year. It all feels like a bad soapopera. I have not done anything but treat her the best possible way, trying to go the extra mile to make her happy. 1-2 months ago she started to change quite a bit. She actually started to become weird when she got her current job, 6 months ago. Now, she is finding and hunging out with people that I have never heard of, on the 3 years that I know her. She is coming late from work, after going to have drinks with her male coworker to talk about their boss since they can do it in the office. The guy is kind of disgusting, according to her, and he actually is.
My wife is drop gorgeous, and not only because I love her, but because she can turn heads without having to wear tiny skirts. She told me that she is not or has not cheat on me, but would she accept it if she was??? I lost my trust on her, when I found out that she was having drinks with her coworker when I went to look for her where I thought she was at. That day she had not called me all day, and then I found her with her coworker at a bar, half drunk and smoking. She claim they were having a profesional talk, but how profesional can it be at a bar over drinks?
Every since she has been acting even more weird, very cold, I can hardly remember the last time we had sex, when at the end she said "this is too much work" . I never saw this coming, she told me that she was not happy, but she could not explain why she is not happy. As a matter of fact she is not like the normal women, that are able to communicate. Instead I have to start the communication, and I suck at it. I bring things up the wrong way. but we never seem to fight. We just argue and forget about it later. I can tell that she was not happy, but we were working towards goals to make us happier. I do not think that getting rid of me is the answer. Her strong personality and hard cold heart will not meet any one that will ever treat her better than I do. No one will have the patients that I have towards her and her issues. As a matter of fact even her mom does not think that she is being rational, nor she knows what she wants.
But now I am destroyed. I can hardly work, I can stop thinking what should I do. I will have to wait for the next 2 weeks to be able to talk to her. but do I want her back? I have lost my trust in her. I don't want to work on anything, since I feel like all I was working and trying to accomplish was for our relation to succeed, to grow.... now I am working for nothing, to accomplish nothing. The grass is getting tall, I don't care, I have a knot in my stomage and an empty space in my heart. I am not sure how I am goign live through this. Pretty patetic for a guy don't you think? What happen to all of our dreams that we had?, just last weekend (6 days ago) she had me build a patio deck so that we could do thing in the patio, how can we now be getting divorce? She said that she was going to think about it during her trip, that she needs some solo time to think things over. But as much as I love her, and I would give anything for her, I don't think that I should take her back. I don't want this awfull feeling in my heart again. And now that I am going thru it, I should get rid of it. But willl I ever find another person like her, that I can love and trust like I used to with her?
Well if someone has read all this, thanks for any input. I will be heading to my empty house to do some solo time. Why does it have to hurt so badly?
