PLAYBOYVANE19

for all of u, i know i have no excuse for cheating but, i dont want to lose my man cus i lov him but he is a very angered person he would get mad and yell at me cuz i wanted to go out and he lost his parking place , or he would call me stupid and hit me many times , and why i dont leave him its cuz he always says sorry and i believe him, hes the kindqa guy that would make u happy as hell one day and and feel lika piece of crap the next, he disappoints me all the timer but i believe hes the only guy i can make a future with, but all that anger and all that name callin makes me go wit other people who been reallyy nicee to me as sweeet as him,

im 19 years old, i been married for almost for 4 months been with my man for 3 n half years, i love him but i been cheating on him for like5 months i ve cheated bef n he knows only about one i kissed, but ive had kissed like6 and had sex with 2 besides him, a 27 year old guy (puertorican) and a 18 year old hondurian) im spanish 2 so i like spanish guys more, my bf is guyanese(westindian) so we dont have stuff in common like language but i love him and i been cheating bad , like i sleep over my other(bf) like twice a week and stuff n he tell em he loves me n i do too and we have had always unprotected sex, but im using bc, i know it aint the same but im dumb wtf u want me to say i feel abd cuz i have 2 guys telling me they love me n i tell both i do as well, and this new guy even presented me as his gurl to his mom and everything and he soo sweet but i luv my husband wats wrong with me ? why am i doing all these bythe way i been wit my husband since i was 16 he my first. by the way im stupid as hell i had unprotected sex wit all of those 3 guys im crazy i know helppp meee my guiltyness is killing me helppppppp