aelynnryelis of greensky

hello, its been a while since the last time i've been on here. i wish i could say everythings ok but things are anything but ok. i dont know where to start this so i'll just sum it up for you all. well after a lot of heart break and pain i finally found a man who loves me and treats me sooo good. i love him more thatn words could ever exspress. well i live with my dad and we have been having some problems lately. a while back we got in to a fight and he ended up hitting me several times. i didnt say anything when i had the brouses on my face but i ended up saying something about it to a Peer Helper at my school. well CPS was called to check up on things. on noe in the house knew for two days. then * * * * hit the fan. my dad had found out and he started screaming at me, telling me what a horrable person i amand that he didint want me. i went into my room and freaked out. i thought about killing myself then ran away because i came the the conclution that i didnt really want to die because i didnt want to lose the one thing i love more thatn life.

i went to school the next day and told my principle that i wasnt going home because of all the things that had happened. well she called the cops and one of them interviewed me. by the end to the day i ended up going to a mental hospital for suicide watch. well i wnt though a week there then came back home to live with my mom. well stupid me i thought all the pain was over until i found out that my sister and mom wanted to keep me away from my bf, who by the way was the only one who got me though all this.

now on top of everthing i feel like im pushing my boyfriend away and i dont know what to do to fix it all. i know i would be lost without him but it seems like he doesnt want to put up with it anymore. im so lost. plus half of my family hates me for telling on my dad. what the hell is that ? is that normal? why is everything falling apart the way it is ? please help im open to anything at this point.

huh.... thats not good that her mom hits her..... what about the dad is he around to help her in any way?.... i also have a nother question for you... why does she cut ? and why do you hurt yourself?

ok heres the thing..... me and my ex recently broke up after an 18 month relasionship..... ummm a few days after are brake up i went out with another guy. but soon after that i had to break up with him because i was going through depression. my ex made me feel as if i was the one who made the mistakes that cost us our relationship. and i tortured myself for 2 weeks over it thinking he'de give me another chance. but soon after he told me that there wouldnt be any more "us". so then i knew it was time to move on. and im trying to. but it kills me to see him the way he is. he hangs around with bad ppl and he smokes pot/drinks and god only knows what else. anyways today it got a whole lot worse. cuz now HE's cutting himself. i got soo mad i wanted to kill myself. so i asked him why he did it. and he said and i quote " you really what to know ...?...... i do it because i miss you!" its my fault. i know theres something i could have done to stop it from happening. i dont know anyore..... i need help please.

o me and my b/f have been going out for a year and 4 months now. ill keep this simple. i love him with all my heart really i do. but recently hes been acting weired around me. i think hes getting ready to break up eith me. but the thing is i dont know what i sould do should i try to stop him or just let it go. we always fight . and he gets mad at me alll the time for stupid stuff. everyone tells me hes no good and hes virbally abusing me. hes made me cry a number of times and only once apoligized for it.theres a lot more behind that but i just need help with this right now. what should i do , should i try to solve our problems or should i let things go. and if that how do i go about that i mean i think im actually scared to lose him and see him with someone else you know so ehat should i do ????!! please help me in any way you can.

you should confront her about how you feel. ask her why the hell one minut shes hot the next shes cold. why is she giving mixed signals.i dont really have the right answers 4 ur Q's but i can tell u that from what i hear ur not doing anything wrong.i dont know who to answer if ur being played or not but u should really try to confront her about whats going on with her. and if she doesnt give u a straight answer or she just keeps doing what shes doing then just stop trying.well i didnt mean it that way its just dont hand her ur heart and play it cool.. i hope i helped.. and sorry i couldnt give u better advise

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ok i have a boyfriend and ive been going out with him for a year and like 3 months now. weve broken up once and got back together but thats not the point. anyways during the time we werent together(broken up) i asked for help on here and i got help from a guy that i asked for further help from. well after he gave me his advise we stopped talking. and i forgot about him(well not entirely). well like a month later i think, he came on and we started talking again.as we got to know eachother we started to know how much we had incomon. well after like a week he had to go on a road trip and suprisingly one of his stops was here in CA. any ways like on christmas night he calls me (i gave him my #) adn from there we havent stopped talking. well to make a long story short, i think im in love with him. but i love my boyfriend. i mean i know my feelings are real for both of them but im not sure if this can be true. like can i love 2 ppl ? is it posible?

well for starters how old are you? and how old is he ?

i think thats a cool song it original thats for sure and i think that it would be really cool to hear.

i wish i could help because it bugs me soo bad because i've gone through the same thing before so i know how oyu feel but im not very good a coping with things like this. umm well i can tell you that there will be others out there for you so you dont have to worry aobut that. i would say it takes time to get over it and it may be a long time but you will get over it. and i know its hard to talk to her but you should try to and maybe that will make things a little easer. just like ask her how she feel about it and tell her how you feel so you know and she knows as well. and then just keep your distance and give your body the time it needs to heal. i mean its ok to feel the way you do i, its only natural. i really hope this helped you out a lil bit and keep me posted on how your doing.

i think if your strong and confident now then i dont see why it shouldnt work out but a year is a long time even visiting on the weekends and its not like its right next door but if you guys are really comitted to eachother then it should work for you. well best wishes to you and i hope it works for you

ok thats a good idea

no i dont know but i will press my dad for her info

my mom isnt his mom i guess i shoulda told you all that before but i have told my dad and i onistly dont think there was a family fight plus my dad was in jail when my sis got maried. any ways i have told my dad to get a hold og my bros mom or any other family he knows but he doesnt seem to anctious about it.

he was 20 something then and no the police werent contacted noone really seemed to care much if they saw him again or not. he got really really drunk i guess so he went back to my sisters house and then went home from there and no i didnt even know who his friends were.

well i dont know anyone he would have cept in touch with. he didnt run away like that it was at my sisters wedding and he got sick i guess and him and some of his friends left to go home. huh to think he didnt even say goodbye.

ok i wasnt to sure about where to put this so i out it here.

ok i'm going to get straight to the point here. the last time i ever saw my older brothe was when i was 8 and it was at my sisters wedding.well i'm 15 now and i havent seen him for 7 years. i tried to get my sister and dad to find him for me but my sister is just about as influenced about finding him as a bug would be at trying to find a spider. and i think my dad really doesnt care.i miss him a lot and i miss have a brother around so if anyone has a website i can go to to find him of anything that can put me on the right track to finding him i would be very greatful for it. and please dont just read this and say its no big deal because it is to me and i would really really love to hear from him again. thanx for your help

i dont kow how exactly to put my problems. i have a lot of then lately andi dont seen to be helping them at all.me and my boyfriend have been having problems lately, a lot of them. it seems i havent been hepling much but for the things i do wrong and cant change all i can do is say sorry. but sorry isnt good enough for him. he expects more and i either cant give him what he wants or i dont want to give him what he wants. i have told him how i feel and he said he would change but he hasnt. i dont know what to do i am lost and no one can help me.andi didnt help much today either. we were talking on the phone and i dont remember what he said but i told him my friend came first. he got so pist off at me i didnt know what to do.i told him i was sorry for sauing that and i didnt mean it but he just told me he would talk to me at school and i am scared of what will happen. i dont know what to do. if any one can help in any way please do please..

i know what your goning through honestly i dont think she ment it. the word "love" has been thrown around like nothing in relationships. it hurts to be on the reseving end of the lie. it sounds like she just said it like nothing. i am sorry about that. i hate to hear when people get hurt or confused about what someone says to then and doesnt mean. actually i am going through confusion with my boyfriend and another guy. its a long story. but any way i dont think you should get to confused or sad over it i mean if you are sad i am sorry about it and hope you feel better.

ok i have been talking to this guy on msn for a while now.we met on here and talked about a problem i had with my boyfriend and after that we didnt talk for the longest time until like a month after. we've been talking for couple months i think and he's even called me and talked to me on the phone.we have like everything in comin almost except he lives in canadaand i live here in califorinia.he has told me he liked me and i feel the same way about him. we never got to meet in person but my parints know about us talking so i'm not hiding anything from anyone.hes the neetest person to talk to and i feel real good about myself when i talk to him.its like he is ment for me but thats imposible right??? he has also said that he loved me but considering he was drunk when he said that i thought he was just being stupid until i asked him the next day and he said that he ment it.that shocked me big time but didnt change anything between us.i know a lot about him i think but he doesnt know to much about me.but i still consider him a good friends as far as computer wise. i have seen what he looks like and he has senn me to but we always want to like see eachother when we talk.anyways i dont know exactly how i feel about him i mean i know i like him a lot but what do i do how do i go along with this??? i guess i am confused about what to do with this. so if any one hase any advise it would be greatly apresiated.. thanx in advance...

hi i think its like something people do to be acsepted by their piers you know like dressing a surtan way to make people like you more. its stupid because if people didnt spend so much time looking for sex and only sex in a relationship they might be more better off you know like if your in love then its safe to say you would be making love not just have sex. in my opinion i think that just having sex is nasty because you never know if they had a std or something... just being intimate like kissing or just a simple hug is great. so its not bad to be a vurgin is great. i mean your not feeling presured to do it. so its cool not to have sex befor your ready. well i hope i gave you an ok answer.

hi me and my b/f recently got back together and we were doing ok but now he is starting to get right back where he started. i mean he said he would change but he hasnt. he still acts inmuture about crap. and it drives me incane. i love him but i wish i didnt act this way.... what can i do to get through to him that he isnt being fair to me. i mean i cant hang out with my friends og go any where without him knowing or geting all huffy about it. i hate to say this but hes starting to act like my older sisters ex husband. and i dont want that .so what can i do???? i am really confused about it and its driving me up the frickin wall.. please give any advice you can to help..... thanx in advance.

its not just talking.. i am really hyper and crapi dont know how to say it but i feel like i have way to much exces energy and i write poems draw and anything i can think of to get rid of it but i like being around people but i hate them just the same.i feel like i act the way i do for the attention but i dont want to talk to people.. i dont want to socialize.

hey its been a while since my last visit.. but any ways i have a question about me.

i am a verry jumpy happy person.. well most of the time. but i feel like i am really anoying. i hate it because the way i act some times buggs the hell out ofme as well. i dont know what to do to make me nonsocial. i hate most people and i know that i want to distence myself from people. but i am a verry social person and i hate that about me. i want to be quiet and kept to myself.

so any advice would be great i guess.. tanx in advance

well i do know you have insomia i use to have it and i bont quite know how i got rid of it. have you tried watching a really really boring show of just laying in bed with the lights off? i really wish i had GOOd advice but thats all i have. so sorry if it doesnt hael but i hope it does.