Started 1st NC on 2.2.16
3rd NC Day 0
I decided to write down what I thought of him in an email and sent to him. It was a harsh email. It didn't matter that he may just delete it or just doesn't respond at all, it made my mind clear that I DEFINITELY don't want him back in my life. Felt even stronger today. After sending the email, I blocked and deleted his number. Blocked his Facebook way back during 1st NC and no desire to unblock since.
I have to say though, this won't work for those who are still hoping to get their ex back, you're likely to break down halfway while writing your email and start begging for them to get together again. I didn't care about burning bridges this time, we are never going to have a future. I want to get married to someone who does want to marry me, and I'm not going to wait until he gets G.I.G.S (happened last time) or just decide at 60 that he wants to marry me to be his caretaker.
Might not update here everyday from now on, but will probably loiter around and contribute something back to this community. It has helped a lot in my previous breakup with this idiot as well.
Cheers to everyone and believe that we'll emerge from this ordeal in a better place! We deserve to love someone who loves us back wholeheartedly!