my soon to be ex wife was always a ball buster. its been just about 8 years and she filed for divorce a year ago. i never for one moment thought she would be unfaithful to me. we have 2 girls 4 and 6. for the last two years, she has been unbearable. before that, we had a relationship that worked, though it had lots of friction. she filed secretly on me and i found out via the newspaper. she was defensive and said she had told me she was. we tried to reconcile, but she just busted my balls more and more. she was micro managing everything i did every move. i gave her a $300,000 home, a nice car, 2 kids, private school, good family, vacations, a nice easy life. we split up again 6 months ago. i still supported the family fully, but a big hunk of life was missing after not being to be around my kids as much as before. the wife wants divorce BIG time, but she also wants and much greater chunk of assetts than i am willing to part with, and what i want to part with is very generous, but we have lawyers bickering. i took my 6 year old girl to greece to see family for 10 days. 5 days after getting there, my lawyer calls me to tell me that my wife has been seeing at least one guy for over two years and all the bull about my not being Mr Right was just that , BULL, as she had her own agenda and i wasnt in it. well, it bummed me out completely, my magical vacation went south major league. i am home now and just so bummed i cant sleep , eat, work. so depressed thinking maybe its not right, maybe she really wants me and she just cant admit she made a mistake. I know thats BULL that i am thinking, i just cant get outta this funk i am in. she has treated me so bad for years and i still loved her and still am upset that she has done this to me.
i gotta get over this and get strong for my children. i have a new place to live, but it only has a couch and a bed. thats all.
i have in this depressed mood 6 months now. and super depressed for a month and super super depressed for a week.
i am a good looking buy, fit, trim, good job, and i just cant seem to get on a roll. i have no enthusiasm, just wanna be like liquid and get horizontial.
how long can this last?
