Hello Curbie,
I'm sorry about the pain that you're feeling right now, we've all gone through it one time or another. From reading your post i see that you two were broken up for 3mo. before the last breakup, if you don't mind me asking what was the reason of the breakups? I think you need to try no contact for awhile, so you wont have to here about the other guy if there is one or not. Also, you need time to yourself to get your thoughts and emotions under control.
While you're taking time for yourself, it also gives her time to miss you and wonder why you have'nt contacted her. I know it's easy for me to say try no contact when you're feeling the way you are, but trust me each day you try and succeed at not contacting her you feel inner strenght and pride, because no one is more important than yourself.
