Stinkweed

You are right. You made the biggest mistake. I wish there was someone who showed interest for me like she did for you. In my opinion, you are not making a mistake by chasing her down to tell her you are sorry. About the psychic... well, I think its kind of creepy that she or he knew that. And well, I am not sure which one is the best way to contact her. But I don't think it's too late. Perhaps someone else can tell you which is the best way to contact her.

I didn't see her alone today. I don't know what to do. Tomorrow is the last day. I'll do anything to talk to her. I just need to do this.

Well, I still think it's good. In fact, being original, is what makes it better now.

Alright. As long as there is still time, I will. I have to do it. I don't know if she hates me, but I sincerely prefer to find out that she hates me than to never find out anything at all. Besides, there's no reason for her to hate me. I'll keep everyone posted, ok? I will try to do this on monday.

That's really good. Do you listen to Cannibal Corpse, or something? I do (well, a little). Keep up the good work.

I didn't do it I'm such an idiot. Probably the dumbest person alive. I'm so stupid. I deserve to die. I don't know what to do now. During lunch, I was sitting in a bench in the school entrance, and she passed by. I, like always felt unprepared and turned my head (I can't even look at her!) and banged my head against the wall unintentionally. She saw, and I probably looked like a freak. Then, as she was walking to the cafeteria, she sort of turned her head sideways to see if I was behind her. Well, I don't know if that's why she did. And if she did, I don't know if she wanted me to follow her, or just checking that I wasn't stalking her. I don't know what to do. Today I had a presentation, and felt 100% confident. I wasn't even nervous, and one of my goals has always been not getting nervous. I can do everything but talk to her. There's only 2 school days left (monday, Tuesday, and then the rest of the week is final exams), and this weekend will be the worst ever (I have to study for the final exams, while having this girl in my head, and feeling so stupid because I didn't try hard enough to talk to her). I don't know what to do. I have blown every chance I had. There's only 2 days left to try to talk to her. Nothing is certain in those two days. I don't even know if I'll ever see her again. I feel so stupid. I hate myself. I had her in one of my classes for the whole last year, and didn't talk to her (but it was because I didn't even try, I just didn't take this seriously). That makes this 2 whole years without talking to her and telling her that I want to get to know her. I want to die. I don't know what to do. Please, help!!

Alright. I hope it just works. Thanks.

Fate is just against me. I was so sure I was going to see her today, but I didn't. She wasn't there. I had an idea that will require all of my courage. I know where one of her classes is (in the same classroom as one of mine, but at different times), so I thought I could go there after it's over and find her and talk to her. The problem is that I don't want her to think I am stalking her, or something. I have to do it today, or there may not be another chance. Please help ASAP, before 12:09 p.m. Please help me!!!!

Alright, I'll pretend there doesn't even seem to be anything wrong (It logically should be that way) and I'll just talk to her. Do you really think I'm just making it all up in my head? Well, the problem is that I don't see her very often. I don't want to follow her or anything, because I don't like to do that type of stuff. Besides, it would make me look like a stalker. And if I fail to try, then I will completely blow it. I will definitively seem like a stalker if she sees me. I definitively don't want that to happen.

I don't know what's going on. Everytime I run into her, she seems to look at me from far away and suddenly has an expression on her face that definitively means no good and then turns the other way. Now I try to avoid her. I don't know why she doesn't like me being around. She used to not make it as obvious as she does now. I have never stalked her. In fact, I hate it when it seems like I'm stalking anyone. I don't like following people even if it's just a coincidence they are going to the same places I am going to. It's too late now. The last chance I had was last week. Now, it's just too late. I don't even see her everyday. I don't know what to do. Come on anyone. Please, help me. I'm definitively running out of time.

I don't know what to do. I see her very very rarely. And when I see her, I don't really feel in the mood to talk. She definitively is angry at me. That's the only logical explanation for wanting to keep as much distance as possible from me. If only you could see how she acts. That way you would also be convinced that there is something wrong. I want to do this. But time is running out. I still can't get the fact that something's wrong out of my head. Sometimes I see her and I just know she notices me because she is sort of looking with her peripheral view and moves away. I know I deserve to get my ass kicked for not doing it. Actually, I wish someone did, so I could get into my senses. But I'm so dumb. I just can't get close to her.

Alright. I will post ASAP. Tomorrow I will probably see her. I need to do this. This time, I have to do it. I can't chicken out this time. I can't walk away like a wuss. I definitively have to do this.

Oops, My bad! Sorry.

I think she means she can't ask out for a date. I can't really help her, so I hope you can avman.

I know exactly how you feel man. I also feel the girl I like is like a drug to me. But, you just do what you can. It will be better than just dying and leaving everything like that. Hope you get rid of that depression. I'm glad we could all help you.

We are in similar situations. The only reason I get out of bed is because of a girl too. But I also feel like a wuss because I haven't talked to her yet. I also have wanted to kill myself multiple times, but it's not really a solution. It only leaves suffering to your relatives, and it will leave your problems behind without ever being solved. Well, the only noticeable difference between you and me is that I'm 16, but weight 225 pounds. I also find it difficult to sleep at night, but I don't hate humans. Their problems are their problems. You know, they are not "Supposed" to like you. If they don't like you, it's their loss. Besides, I know that everything bad in my life is brought onto me by myself. I also am depressed most of the time, because the only goals that make me want to get out of bed in the morning are also the only ones I can't accomplish. But most of the time, when I'm around people (especially if they talk to me), I fake being happy and upbeat. That way, I can socialize more. But on the inside, I'm just like you, very frustrated. Finally, I just need to tell you what I tell myself and everyone who wants to die (people who don't should also liste), find a center for your life. Whether it's a new friend, or that girl you like, or even a hobby. I know it's hard (I'm having problems talking to the girl I like because it' really easier said than done), but it's got to be possible. Just try, and never forget that you're certainly not the only one who is in that situation, and not the only one trying to get out of it. Best wishes. Good luck. Pm me if you ever want to talk, because after all, it takes two blind men to see, and two cripples to scratch an itch.

Thanks for your advice. I'll post should anything come up.

You post makes perfect sense. But sometimes I'm just not in the mood to try. Today I woke up on a down, so I didn't even try. Well, I will have to just forget about it, because I know I probably will not see her again anymore. I mean, if circumstances weren't against me, I surely would. It's not that I am looking for excuses for not doing it, it's because I just can't. Man, I want to, but I feel so frustrated. There is no "good" occasion for me. All is just too hectic for me to be able to bear. I will still try my best. Thanks

Well, I think I have been suffering from depression since I was like 8 That was when my grandfather died (after we had so much hope he wasn't going to). After that, lots of things have happened that make me go through depression. But nothing like now, though. I have never been depressed to the point of wanting to die so many times in a year as I have been this year. Best wishes.

Dude, thank you. Your statement has encouraged me. Not just because of what it says, because it shows me that at least you still have faith in me. Thanks. Best wishes.

Come on. Please give me some quick advice. I'll probably see her tomorrow and don't even know if I should do this anymore. I would like to, but if it's against anything, then forget it.

Whatever. I was just trying to help. I understand you don't want to talk, because I do feel like that sometimes. I also don't have many relationships. But, just remember that the only thing eveybody likes, no matter what, is money. When someone doesn't like another person, it will be his/her loss.

Well man, I tell you that you shouldn't do it. I know how you must be feeling if you have those kinds of thoughts. Just take a look at my signature and you will know how I feel (lol ). Why is it that you want to commit suicide? I also have had those thoughts in my mind (even today), but I will not just give up that easily. There is no best pill. You could end up causing yourself permanent damage (you would have to live the rest of your life handicapped and paralyzed without even being able to eat for yourself, or speak). Also, think about what your folks and relatives will have to go through. You may say that maybe life won't get better, but what if it does? You will look back and see what you would have missed. You need to meet people and find a hobby you like. You may feel your life is pointless, well then find a center (something I haven't been able to do, but for various reasons). But it may be easier for you. Set yourself a goal. Mine is finding that center I spoke to you about. If you need to talk, just pm me. I hope I helped. Best wishes.

Hi Muchas,

Ok, I am not doing well today. Today I had to get a ride to school because I missed the bus. When I got off the car I saw the girl. She also got a ride, off course. So, she was carrying some boxes, and I held the door into the school open for her. I feel like I should have helped her carry the boxes, though. But she would just have refused anyway (I think). She just said thank you and looked straight ahead without even moving her head (does that mean she didn't want me to help?), and I couldn't even say You're welcome. Then, when I went to that place I see her alone before the first class, I got there too late. She was with her friends already. I just think it sucks because I will not see her alone until like Wednesday. Even then I just know I won't do this. I'm too stupid, and maybe everyone who has posted advice for me has overestimated me. Damn it, I just don't know if I should try to do this anymore. It's not like it will get any of us anywhere. I would like to try, but I can't control this. Maybe it would get us to somewhere, but I just can't. I still want so badly to get to know her, but I know I never will. I guess I will have to live with never having made the effort to get to know her. Because that's the way it is. Weeks have come, and weeks have gone, and still I am not even close to trying. I wish there were those devices, like in Men In Black, that erase the people's memory, because I know I will need one for sure. Thanks everyone for your help. Also, I need to add that I noticed in one of your old posts that you wrote I said she smiled at me. Well, if I really said that, then I lied. Sorry, but she has never smiled at me. Please help if there is still hope.

Well, If anyone can help you, then they would be helping me too. I also am shy and I am a loner. I also like a girl, and my heart pounds really hard when she is around. I know perfectly how you feel, but I can't help you, because we are in the same situation.