Stinkweed

I'm not being obsessive. It's just that I feel... Under pressure. You know, Now or never. What if I don't see her? I am prepared for "If" I see her. But what if I don't?

Please, help me. I need to know ASAP. Tomorrow is the last day. Please, help!

Come one anybody. Any ideas? I can get her phone number from the student directory at school. Is giving her a call a good idea? I'm sorry if I sound impatient, it's just that there is a time limit (tomorrow is the last day, and I don't even know if I'll see her). Does anybody have any life-saving ideas? If you do, please post right now.

It simply can't be impossible... I can't fail myself like this.

Too late. I didn't see her today. I am almost sure she isn't her in school, because I have seen her friends, but not her. Maybe the stupid letter did screw everything up unrepairably. It's too late. I didn't see her today, and there is even less chance of seing her tomorrow. In conclusion, I will never see her, or hear from her anymore in my life. I'm so stupid.

Alright. I can do some of those things. But I already gave her the letter, so she knows my name, and that I want to keep in touch. I wish I knew what's going on in her head. Well, I hope she doesn't say "Go to Hell", or something. But even that would be a lot better than just ignoring me. I just want to keep it simple, alright? I don't want to get tangled in a mess of words. I'll just say like abcd1234 said: "I hope I didn't scare of offend you with the letter". The rest will come to me in the moment, I guess. But an outline of what I would like to tell her would be: "I would love to get to know you, so what's your email?" and "We could then hang out some time together". Well, that's the general idea. I hope it works.

I hope everything goes well. I also hope that the stupid letter thing didn't harm my chances. And I hope that the look she gave me on Friday is not a "Go to Hell" look. It's that same look she used to give me even before I gave her the letter, so I think it's nothing bad, because when I called her name to give her the letter, she acted very kindly. Everybody wish me luck, because tomorrow will be the hour of truth...

Alright. I can do that. Thanks everyone. You know, I realized talking to her isn't as hard as it used to seem. She reacted so nicely when I called her and gave her the letter. Well, about her being alone. I guess I will have to call her, or something, because she is always around her friends, or waiting for them to come, like that time when I gave her the letter. One of her friends came down and looked at me as if I was a creature from outer space, and it sort of freaked me out. It was very confusing. So, I couldn't really stick around. Well, I don't have much time left to do this. I will have to call her even if she is with friends. Well, at least I know it might not be unrepairable. Once again, thanks everyone.

I am 100% sure she has the wrong impression about me. I just know it, and I want to correct it. Well, I came up with an idea for when I talk to her. I should tell her that I wrote the letter just in case she was in a hurry, or with her friends, so I didn't have to intrude. Is that a good idea? And well, I want to tell her exactly what you say. You know "I would love to get to know you better, and hang out sometime", well, that. Do you think she is rejecting me already? If she is, then I wouldn't like to seem too pushy. What should I do? am I taking the right path now?

would something like "I want to let you know that I really mean every single thing I wrote in the letter", and then ask her email address and phone number work? I mean, I want to let her know that I'm intersted in her. What would be the best thing to say?

Nevermind... I mean, I still want to do it, but I can't. So, all I did was ridicule myself. Now, what will she think about me? I made matters worse. I screwed up big time. It's amazing how stupid I was. The worst part is that it's not totally her fault, you know, rejecting me. It's me. I made a horrible mistake, and probably will never be able to fix it. I guess this is the end...

Alright. But what should I say? Should I say basically what I wrote her in the letter all over again? What should I do?

Do you think it's too late to do it verbally? If it isn't, then I could try...

As you can see, I'm feeling very anxious. I'm still hopelessly waiting for something to happen, but I don't know what is going on. Is she supposed to just ignore me from now on and pretend that I never gave her anything? Or is she supposed to tell me to go to hell? I'm trapped in purgatory all over again.

Also, I couldn't talk to her myself, because besides the fact that she definitively has nothing good to tell me, she was with her friends. When I went to see if some of them were gone, she was the one who was gone. Well, what can I do? I played my hand, and still hope it worked, although every day, hour, minute, and second that passes, I know that the possibility of having succeeded is less. What bugs me is: why hasn't she told me to go to hell straight into my face? This doesn't make me feel any better. In fact, it makes me feel just like before I gave her the letter. Maybe I did so horribly that she doesn't even want to waste her breath on telling me to buzz off. Well, who knows what women have in their heads? Still, I don't like to be a pessimist, but I just know that I screwed up. She would have said something by now. But instead, she accidentally looked at me and turned her head as fast as she could and I tried waving, but she had already turned. So, what the heck? What's supposed to happen now? I'm miserable again God, I wish she would instead tell me, right into my face, to go to hell. But no, she hasn't even waved at me.

It all went to hell already. She saw me today and turned her head as quick as she could. She hasn't contacted me. I screwed up. I don't know what I did wrong, but whatever it was, she didn't like it. I'm beginning to think she didn't even read it, and threw it away immediately after I left. I mean, she received it, and she was so cool about it, but it maybe was all faked.

Well, I gave her my email in the letter. "If" she contacts me, I don't know what I should do. I guess it all depends on what she says. I guess I would try to make friendly conversations. You know, get to know each other. But I don't like to be a pesimist, but I honestly think it will not happen. Maybe I should have done it in a different way, or I should have written different things. I just can't get the feeling that I blew it out of my mind. Oh well, at least I tried...

I finally did it. I saw her inside a classroom presenting her exam. I finished mine much earlier b/c it was much easier (French 3 vs. French 1 At first I hesitated, but the occasion seemed to be so perfect, I decided to not run like a coward. Ok, so I when she came out, I said "Hey", and she didn't seem to have heard, so I got closer and called her name, and at the same time one of her friends appeared. So, I just told her "I just want to give you something", and I gave her the letter. It was pretty confusing. I was kind of concentrated on just her, and suddenly her friend came and stopped on her tracks, and I think she asked her "why did you stop". Well, I gave her the letter and she said "Oh, ok" (She wasn't angry, or anything). She received it in a good way. But I couldn't stick around to say more, because her friend was there and it kind of a surprise to me. I feel so much better now, even though I doubt it will turn out the way I wanted it to. I mean, it should be ok. I just wrote that I wanted to get to know her and keep in touch and I gave her my email. There was nothing offenssive, and I didn't ask her to be my gf, or marry me, or anything weird.

Yeah, but all the girls I always see she hangs out with are complete strangers to me. I don't think it will be very easy to pull that off. Well, I hope I see her alone, or almost alone, maybe I can call her if I see her with her friends. I think that if I call her name (yes, I do know it), she should obviously come alone. I would then give her the letter. Is that a good plan? Today I saw her "alone" in the library. I mean, she was surrounded by people, but I don't think she knew any of them. I wanted to do it anyway, but I just couldn't. I don't know why. Maybe it was because it was too crowded. I don't know. Please help me, there's still hope.

I don't know what to do. What if I see her only with her friends? What should I do? I'm so confused. I want to do this very much. Please help me.

I think there is still time. I will try to do it if I see her around.

Hey everybody. I'm sorry for having wasted your time. Now I would need more than a miracle to talk to her. I don't know if I'll ever see her again. You want to know something interesting? I went for dinner to a Chinese buffet, and they gave me a fortune cookie. It said, "Now is the time to go ahead and pursue that love interest!". It's weird that it was such a coincidence. Well, anyway, it's too late now. I screwed up. What's more, now I'm going to fail the exams. Tomorrow I have the toughest one, and I'm having trouble concentrating on it. I just can't get the thought that I'm a looser out of my head, and obviously, I can't get her out of my head. Damn it, I screwed up.

Buy it's easier said than done. Besides, I think it's too late already. The rest of the week will be exams. I wouldn't tell her right off, what I feel about her. All I want is her email. Then, after we get to know each other a little better, I would tell her that I like her. Well, I'll try to do it if I see her, which is unlikely because she will be presenting her finals in rooms different from mine, because we don't have any classes together this year.

Nothing. I haven't seen her alone. I'm afraid it's too late by now. I'll try to find her and talk to her, but I think it's just hopeless.

Oh, but I do know about that anguish and pain you talk about. Even though I'm younger, I just know that if I fail to do this, I will end up like you (no offense intended, it's just that almost everyone I know has had girlfriends since they were like 13 years old). Besides, she is the only girl I have been so serious about. I don't think that I will be in the mood to try to talk to anyone else (after all, she is unique, and it's not her fault that I haven't talked to her). People will say that there's plenty of fish in the sea, and blah. But it's just not the same. Not being able to try is so bad. It burns my soul every day. I feel this pain on my inside. I know it's not physical, but brought unto myself by my stupidity. I have never kissed a girl, or been in a date, or done romantic phone calls, or had any girlfriend, just like you, wlfpack. Just about everyone that asks me if I have a gf is surprised by my answer, which obviously is a "no". This has happened since when I was in my early 15th year. It still happens. Man, but it's not about that. It's about the relief that I know will come afterwards. About not feeling so helpless anymore. I need to do this!