borderline personality disorder

[KellyWyndham]

This might be getting worse

Or has it always been the same?

I watch them all around me

Wishing I were they

Whilst always trying to tell myself that I am me.

And that 'me' can be beautiful.

 

I always need someone near me

A kind of constant reassurance that I am not alone.

Without it, I feel like I do now.

I am empty, scared and helpless.

This feeling creeps up on me.

And grows over my mind like grass.

 

I'm only a six year old inside

Hearing so many things

Those things have been frozen

And now lie within my soul.

You told me I was worthless

And now

I finally believe you.

[bar35]

Thank you for sharing this. If this is something you wrote, you should know it is both beautiful and tragic. Also you are not worthless, you just helped me to understand more of my ex girl friends behavior, to hear it expressed and it helps me to understand her. So thank you.

[girl friend]

Aww thats good but so sad sweetie.

 

Did it really happen?

[AnotherBrokenDoll]

I loved it, your poetry is always really great, and you should know that you are a fantastic person!

[KellyWyndham]

thankyou, yeh well basically if you have a kind of abusive environment when you grow up the worst damage is really done to your mind and most of the pain you feel much later on! at least thats what i believe.. bpd isnt the end of the world but it can be so frustrating!

[Diggitydave]

thank you kelly.