'my mind is just chasing various thoughts again'

[From_Now_On]

mind over

(it doesn't)

matter

this shyness (won't)

the silence (don't)

let it shatter

 

too late…

 

i'm sitting here alone (as I often do)

i'm sitting here (by myself)

just thinking things through

 

and none of this will probably make any sense…

(most people just don't hear me)

usually we only hear what we want things to have meant

(so we can hide within our false sense of security)

i already know whatever meaning I pursue will just be shaded

and any idea new to me, I know

i still was not the first to have created

but it's how I'm feeling (today)

so I'll just say it

i have found that I often feel

deflated

and so often it seems

"the usual"

is overrated

you know it's occurred to me

it doesn't make sense to say "I *FEEL* jaded"

and lately I've found myself wondering,

how come everyone always says how they feel hated?

and I've been thinking

what's with Happy and Birthday always being separated by 'belated'

and I've been noticing recently just how much

my dreams have faded

everything is going exactly like I anticipated

i don't know why I even sat here and waited

in the first place

everything is always done in such poor taste

these days

how many layers of masks must we peel off to find someone's face?

and it's so irritating

how this random rhyming is lacking so much grace

 

that's not how i wanted this to be

my point is lost in the verse

i know all that you will see

is a meaningless conglomeration of words

 

yet still I look at this paper and I sit back amazed

if I could take a snapshot of the thoughts racing through my head

it would read-out much like this page

but I'll write it off as 'my mind is just chasing various thoughts again'

i realize that this silence was my one and only friend

…and I killed it

slaughtered it with stanzas

that hardly make any sense

i forgot what I was saying

but I still know what I meant

 

it's all a game of mind over

(it doesn't)

matter

this shyness just wouldn't

and the silence I shouldn't

let it shatter

 

but it's too late now.

[Love Her Like Crazy]

ditto

[QTpie87]

i hear ya