Best written wen High... n drunk........

[ojk85]

hello,

 

I'm High..

 

n drunk///

 

 

why?..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

...Because _ _ _

 

 

 

 

 

 

Almost a year ago, I was here, typing away about my life miseries and broken a$$ heart, to half the people who dont give a feck. Yes. I used to go here and type all these shi about me and my ex, who promised me about a sweet life and happily ever after, but then left me, and two months later started dating a guy, whos damn rich,.. AF/. yada yada yada... Doesnt matter.

 

I was heartbroken.

 

Yes, i was damn heartbroken..

 

like yes, murder me status heart broken...... . . .

 

and it used to........................

 

hurt, like sooooooo much hurt, like crazy "i cant breath" kinda hurt so much.....

 

that i had to go in this website and type shi to make me feel good sorta..

 

sorta kinda hurt..

 

That i gave up about loving ever ever ever again kinda hurt. like..

 

hopeless hurt. like you cant breath kinda hurt.

 

like, makes you feel numb kinda hurt. questioning your self worth, self respect, self esteem....

 

been there.

 

done that.

 

i held on.

 

lost it a few times.. alcohol, pain killers, drugs e t c . . . .

 

 

 

 

took a step back, breathe, have heard all the dumbest and most cliche advises ever.

 

thought.. about me, my life, future, self worth, aspirations....

 

i lived through it... was probably the hardest things in life..

 

the hopelessness,, emptiness..

 

but,

 

i lived through...

 

 

 

im with someone, ill be honest, i love her, but i think not as much as the ones before.

 

i cant be the flower kinda guy that i used to be.

 

i cant

 

 

 

 

but she was ok with that...

 

 

 

shes happy, when im just happy..

 

shes happy when im just being myself.

 

shes happy when shes with me,

 

its so simple..

 

it really is...

 

people say and think, that, to work a relationship you have to try your very best and work the hardest to make it work..

 

but really,

 

to make it work,

 

is just be happy..

 

 

and i am....

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

finally i am..

 

and im writing here so that you can know..

 

 

 

that you are not alone...

 

 

 

we have been there..

 

 

 

even when it hurts, so bad....

 

you will get through and find love again...

 

 

 

but at the same time, stronger,

 

and smarter,

 

to know.....

 

that you are worth it.

 

im high, because my good friend from my new job gave me chocolates which until i realized a few minutes later tasted like dope. (which was funny)

 

im drunk because the new people i met and became friends with bought be a few beers,

 

a new job, my dream job which made me more anxious to do my best everyday,..

 

a new life which felt like it took all my lifes time to mold. . .

 

 

 

coming home to a person, who recently started loving you, fully, because of who you are and what you

[TheAbandoned]

I wasn't sure where you were going with this at first...glad I stuck it through to the end.

 

Great post...wisdom spoken here.